My Diary Entries

1/6/15 5:45 pm

Hey, so the first day back was okay, I'll talk about it more. So, my first period class is History (I didn't sleep at all last night and I haven't taken a nap) it was so boring and we had a pop quiz about what we learned last term. I got 20/30 which is good to me since I barely remember anything, ever. Then math came and I had a pre-test. Then I had a pretest in science, then in English we did a little activity in groups where we gave instructions on how to make a shape that you made with cut outs of shapes and your teammates have to make that with just verbal instructions, sorry i'm so bad at explaining things. After fourth I have lunch. I did what I always do. I went to bathroom and stayed in the stall the entire time. I guess you could say I hide from everyone around. I did it in 7th grade because I didn't have friends at all and seeing everyone with friends and talking was like torture. This year I have friends only like 2 of them have my lunch (our school has first and second lunch, I have second). I also do this so it's easier to not eat lunch. I usually skip lunch and breakfast. I also had to plan for how i'm going to change in the locker room. I don't want anyone to see my scars so that's why. Btw I have PE after lunch. I brought a bracelet to cover the bandaid on my wrist.

Once the bell rang I remember getting nervous. I talked to T a little before going in the locker room. I changed, making sure to hide my scars. When we got out I did the same thing I always do, I looked around for J. I stopped myself and tried to focus on the conversation with T and Em. Ever since I first liked him I always search for him as we walk. A few more minutes later I saw him, standing and talking. My heart started beating (sometimes I remember things pretty vividly). We kept walking, getting closer to him and I hid behind T a little. She didn't notice and we walked past him. I took a breath and calmed down.

1/10/15 6:40 am
So i'm doing a little 2 in 1 because I kinda stopped writing and fell asleep that night and I didn't keep writing for the rest of the week, sorry. So I woke up at 4 am since I went to sleep at 7 (my sleep schedule is just terrible right now) okay so, I'll give you a brief summary of the week: so emotional (more than normal), I've been so close to crying but I normally never cry (I don't like it so I try not to do it), maybe I attempted suicide but my friends kept begging me not to but I didn't even take enough pills anyway, and have not been doing much homework and just going on YouTube. I guess that wasn't so "brief" but whatever. This week has sucked but I have gotten a lot of writing done. I just don't have ideas for some of my stories but i'm trying! So yeah, there's my little continuation of that other entry from a Tuesday! Bye!

-Angel
6:51 am

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Sorry if it's pretty short! I'm bad at explaining real life events through writing. I'm trying though, i'm practicing my writing with this. I still need lots of improvement, I know, but i'm still young so my writing will get better with time, I promise. I hope you enjoyed reading random things about my life right now but as always:

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