My Diary Entries

4/25/15 6:15 pm

So lately I started a new diet and I'm happy about it. It's actually healthy, and isn't harmful for me to continue for once. I've been making smoothies with Kale, Spinach, a mix of other leaf looking things, apples, and bananas. You can't taste the greens in it, but you can see it because they turn it green. On Tuesday I decided to be vegetarian for the day, and it was a little challenging because we went to the store. I did keep my dad from buying the usual junk that we get, the worst being Goldfish, the best being the vegetables I've mentioned. And on Wednesday my dad got some Chinese food (dim sum, i don't know if you know it, probably not, but it's fricken delicious) so I had a couple pieces of things with meat, not much though. And I haven't eaten any meat since, but it was only 3 days ago. So I'm going to continue with this vegetarian thing for as long as I can. It's not for reasons that people normally think though, it's just health stuff for me. I'm not trying to save animals because they are going to be killed anyway, that's just life. If they are born to be killed, they are going to be killed by whoever raised them. I'm not saying that that's completely right, it's not, but I don't have a say in what people do with their life, if they want to raise animals for food that's their choice. But that's just me and my reasons. So yeah, I've been doing good with this diet and I'm proud. Mostly because normally by now I'd be already binging and ruining it, but I haven't and I don't intend to.

So now let's talk about feelings and stuff like a diary is for. So I've been feeling better lately, and have been more willing to do something other than sitting in my room on my phone. I've been improving on my - what I like to call - self love journey or self confidence process, or whatever you want to call it. I'm not even halfway close to confidence yet but I can tell it's been better. Depression is so hard to overcome, no matter what. I don't even know why I had it anymore but I guess there's really no meaning, it just happens. I guess that's how the world is; things just happen that don't even have meaning or a reason, and can be fair or horrifyingly unfair. Everything leads to something else that leads to another and so on. But yeah, I've been feeling better in comparison to like, 3 months ago. I've also been trying harder in school. Not like it's become my life, but doing an assignment or two that I was not wanting to. Before I would've blown it off but I've been taking small steps. For me, any small improvements or little things towards one big goal is amazing. Every little things counts, no matter how small or insignificant it seems. I feel like I quoted something but I don't know what it'd be. So those are my thoughts and updates for right now.

-Angel
8:08 pm

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