My Diary Entries

Thoughts/more about me...

Hello all, it's been quite a while... I haven't been doing much but I thought it was good to update you! So yesterday I went to movies with T, Em, and Em's brother (I didn't find out his name or I forgot. Either one). It was really fun and we saw Mall Cop 2 (it was really funny), and got a bunch of popcorn. I also told T to get Cookie Dough Bites for the first time and she likes them! They're my new favorite candy. We also shared her Root Beer and half the popcorn. It felt like a date. But it wasn't, obviously, but I wish it was. Like really, really bad.

This goes into what I want to talk about... I'm Bisexual. I've said it a few entries ago but I want to actually talk about it. So for my entire life (until now) I was straight. I thought guys were hot and I had male crushes only. But the thing is, I also felt something towards certain girls too... Something I wouldn't have ever admitted. Once I actually started thinking about it little, it was then always in my head. The thought terrified me and so I had to always say I'm straight every time I could. I thought it would be wrong of me and gross to like girls too. At that time many of my friends were coming out as Bi and I accepted them. So I was a total hypocrite. Then I started kind of feeling more than a friend feeling towards my friend T. I tried to deny it still. Then when I was really questioning it on a car ride home, I texted my friend, A, about it. I still remember parts of the conversation (which is a big deal because my memory is so, so, so bad), and it was hard because I hadn't accepted it yet, I didn't want to. I'm not sure how long after (but it couldn't have been that long) I kept thinking and thinking and finally told my friends I was Bi. We were walking to the student Cafe and I was nervous. I kind of just said "I'm Bi" and they totally accepted it (well considering two of them are Bi and one is Ace [Asexual] I don't know why they wouldn't). Then I just kind of made it clear to like everyone. Well except my family, I don't want to tell them yet. I'm kind of scared. Plus I still wonder about it. Lately I've been wondering if I'm Lesbian because I still don't fully know. But how could I? Im 13 (14 in a month!) and I'm still on the process to loving myself (in a non-conceited way). But I'm pretty sure I'm Bi. Well anything but Straight at this point.

Also, since my friends were all coming out that especially made me start thinking. Just had to say that.

Next, I started watching Pokemon! I used to watch it when I was younger but the only Pokemon I remembered from it are Charmander, Squirtle, Bulbasaur, and Jigglypuff (I left out Pikachu because everyone knows that one). So I'm really excited! I'm only on episode 12 of the first season but at least I started it. So yeah... I just had to say that.

-Angel

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Thanks for reading about the movies, my sexuality, and Pokemon. Randomness is my specialty!

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