Fucker

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Jacks P.O.V
She'd been crying for half an hour when she finally had nothing more to give, there were no more tears only gentle weeps coming from her mouth and shudders going through her body. I stroked her hair as I lay next to her in the tiny hospital bed and held her close.

'Shhh it's okay' I'd been repeating the same thing for what seemed like hours, not sure if it was really helping or not. 'I'm so sorry baby' I added, kissing her head again and pulling her swollen teary face away from my chest to look at me.

'If anyone should be sorry, it's me' she replied, dropping her face back to my chest and wrapping her arms around my chest, her arm going under my shirt to my skin like she always does when she's sad or tired.

'What do you mean? You have nothing to be sorry for silly' I reassured her, confused as to why she was beating herself up for this.

'Because the one thing I'm supposed to be able to do I couldn't' she sighed bringing her blanket up to cover her as well as my hoodie that I brought for her.

'Hey! Don't talk like that, we have time' I replied, smiling against her hair and she sniffled and took some deep breaths. 'You know, we should probably release a statement before someone here does' I added.
I know full well it's not what she's going to want to hear right now but I also know what people are like and anyone in this hospital who's seen her or me will jump at the chance to tell this story and earn abit.

'I know' she huffed, I took a quick photo of her hand in mine and began to type out my post, I didn't know what to say, how to say it or why I was really doing this.
Why was I still here with her? Why had she made such an impression on me and why couldn't I stay away? Why did the idea of a second without her feel like absolute hell and any second with her felt like heaven? I never really believed in love until now.

JackGrealish: today we say goodbye to our angel babies, this was a massive shock to both of us and I hope you can all respect our need for privacy at this time ❤️

Sage_y: Thankyou for staying @jackgrealish, goodbye my angels mummy and daddy love you ❤️😭

Sage spent a few more days in the hospital being monitored and what not. The nurses said something about waiting for the babies to come away before they let her out. Each and everyday all day either me, Mason or Megan were at her bedside doing our best to entertain her and keep her mind away from the obvious until it was finally time to come home.

'I'm sure I can walk to the car' she whined as I walked along side her whilst she was wheeled along the hospital corridor in a wheelchair and out to the car.

'Oi, your normally asking me to carry you, take it or leave it' I joked chucking her bag of things into the car and helping the nurse to get her into the passenger seat and comfortable.

'Now remember, take those tablets for the pain relief three times a day and rest, lots, your body needs it' the nurse warned before turning on her heals and walking away, I stood by the passenger door of the car next to Sage and waited until the nurse was gone before having a giggle.

'Yes sir' I joked, pretending to salute in the nurses direction, Sage giggled but soon groaned when it caused her pain in her tummy 'oops, sorry baby' I apologised pressing my lips to her forehead.
I jogged around to the drivers side and headed home, trying to drive as carefully as I could to keep Sage comfortable.

Once we got home I helped Sage into my house and onto the sofa where she curled up and hugged my hoodie close to her, I don't think she's been away from that thing since she went to the hospital.

'What do you want to do gorgeous?' I asked plopping down next to her and bringing her onto my lap where I stroked her hair 'I can run you a bath? Or we can order a takeaway?'

'I love you Jack' she blurted out, looking up at me, her big blue eyes shining and shimmering as tears formed in the corners.
My heart jumped as the words left her mouth and I couldn't help the grin that plastered itself across my face as I looked down at her.

'I love you too' I replied, pressing my lips to hers and cupping her cheeks with my hands as she sat up, straddling me. 'Come on, I'll run you that bath' I smiled, lifting her up into my arms and walking upstairs to the bathroom, plopping her down on the toilet I began to run the water, adding in the bubble bath, a few bath salts and a mint scented bath bomb.

'Never had you down as a bath bomb kinda guy' Sage pointed out, smiling at me as I monitored the temperature of the water with my arm. 'Never had footballers in general down as bath bomb guys really' she continues, picking at the loose ends of my hoodie.

'First of all, stop that you'll ruin it' I tutted moving her hands away from the threads she was pulling at 'and secondly that's discrimination against footballers you know' I smirked turning my head away from her and pointing it upwards with fake ignorance. I could hear her giggling behind me and as I turned around she had the biggest smile on her face.

'Right strip off and in you get' I commanded standing up and turning off the taps once the water was right, pointing my finger in the direction of the bath.

'Yikes take me to dinner first' she winked, taking off her clothes and stepping into the bathroom.

I collected her clothes and put them into the washing machine, noticing the blood on her pants and trousers. I felt a pang of sadness hit me at what would of happened if we hadn't lost the twins, how things would have panned out. Looking down at the blood stained clothes I sighed and let a singular tear fall from my eye. Wiping it away I set them to wash and headed back to Sage.

'We should go away' Sage suggested, turning to look at me as I entered the bathroom and climbed into the bath with her, bringing her back to rest against my chest.

'Yeah? Where do you wanna go?' I responded trickling water down her back with my finger tips.

'I've always wanted to go to Mykonos' she responded, linking one of her hands with mine and playing with my fingers.

'That's settled then, we'll go there'

A/N
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