❝You're thinking too much, just love me.❞
❝I'm scared to love you,❞ I mumbled under my breath. ❝Attachment is frightening.❞
❝I'm scared too, but I'm willing. I don't know how it feels like to be unconditionally loved by someone. I think that's th...
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Sohyun~
"Here it is." I handed Leo his clothes back.
Beomgyu sat there with a grin on his face as I came to sit beside him, like the usual. It's currently Monday, our first day back after that long weekend. We actually came to school together but he dropped me off somewhere further, so we wouldn't arrive at the same time to avoid suspicion.
"There's a party at my house later, y'all better be there. Even you." Leo pointed at me and I was confused.
"I'll be there." Beomgyu whispered and I smiled.
"Okay, I'll go!" I told them. It's probably not the best idea since they all still hate me, but oh well. I need to get out of my comfort zone sometimes.
Today was a pretty busy day at school, and we got a shit ton of homework. I tried my best to finish everything during lunch time so that I don't have to worry about it later .
Beomgyu and I met at our designated meeting place after school so we could get ready for the party together. We first went to Gangnam, buying new clothes for the event.
"Do you think they're planning on doing something bad to me? I don't want to ruin this." I tried on a nice outfit, but began to hesitate at the thought of it getting ruined.
"Honestly, I have no idea. Those people are very unexpected," Beomgyu tried to make me feel better. "If you feel comfortable in it, you should go ahead and buy it! You don't even have to wear it today."
I gave my card to the cashier and her eyes immediately grew wide, instantly calling over the other staffs. They greeted me with so much respect and politeness, only then did I realize that we entered one of my parents' department stores.
"You're like a prince here." Beomgyu whistled in amazement.
"I guess." I shook my head and also let him pick an outfit. I don't even have to pay for anything.
"Do you wanna try something new today... like holding hands?" He suddenly asked out of nowhere, making me giggle.
"Okay." I put my hand out and allowed him to interlock his fingers with mine. We walked around the mall like that, and for once I actually felt... wanted. We did receive a couple of disgusted looks, probably since we both look like men.
Since we both knew that the night is going to be long and crazy, we decided to have a meal before going to Leo's place. Just some standard Korean food; perfect for people on a budget.
"So, where will you drop me off?" I waited for his response as we got closer to our destination.
"Honestly, just go with me. I don't think anyone will notice as long as we separate once we get inside." Beomgyu analyzed.
We did exactly as he planned, and it worked out perfectly. I remained invisible while he was out there in the crowd. I never realized until now just how truly popular he is- most of all, a lot of girls seem to like him.
"Do you want one?" Some guy came up to me with a bowl. There's some candies in it, different shapes and very colourful. Maybe I should try one?
"Don't!" Beomgyu pulled me away and glared at the guy. "Those are ecstasy, which are drugs. They have bad side effects especially if it's your first time."
"Really? Thanks for letting me know! They never taught me that in home schooling." I shook my head.
"I learnt the hard way." He said before getting pulled by another group of people. He really is a social butterfly.
⚠️ TW// hazing, severe abuse & bullying, mentions of self harm ⚠️
"Attention!" Leo stopped the music and began talking on a microphone. "So we had a new boy transfer recently, and what fun would it be if we don't do a hazing ceremony? That's the tradition!"
The crowd suddenly cheered as I felt someone yank me by the arm. I was then tied up and gagged.
"Should we... make him go on a little bungee jump?" Nana wiggled her eyebrows in excitement.
They carried me up the stairs and onto the balcony. I have a big fear of heights, and this house being three stories high is not helping. At the bottom, there are people holding a huge sheet.
"Have fun!" She pushed me and I almost felt my soul fly away as they dropped me off the balcony.
I fell onto the sheet but they immediately let go, causing me to land painfully onto the cement. I can't move and my whole body is in so much pain.
"Next round!" A person came up to me, holding a wood-burner. "Let's draw something cute."
I immediately screamed once the tip of the tool came in contact with my skin, but almost no sound escaped due to the gag. The dude began drawing a penis on my wrist, and the excruciating pain from the burner made me cry out. It feels so hot, yet my whole body feels so cold. I've never felt such physical pain before.
"Now for the final touch!" Leo pulled Beomgyu over to me, handing him a bottle of whiskey. "Pour it over."
"I don't want to." Beomgyu stared at me in pity. Please get me out of here...
"Come on!" The crowd started booing him, and the pain in my body just kept getting worse by the second.
Please just get it over with.
I nodded, sending him a signal that it's fine. I'd rather just get it done now- I just want this all to be over.
Beomgyu poured the alcohol onto my new wound, making my whole body shudder as I felt my wrist burn.
"You know a good way to cover it up?" Nana came to whisper to me. "Take a razor and slit your wrist. Go kill yourself, loser."
