hate to love you ⌮ choi beomgyu

26 | sweet things

Beomgyu~

We drove in the rain while listening to our favourite music on aux cord. Sohyun and I have similar taste in music, which is probably one of the reasons why we get along so well.

"It's the train tracks! We haven't gone in a while." She pointed out the window.

"It's raining, we might get sick." I told her but she just rolled her eyes.

"Since when have you been a party pooper? We literally danced outside in the rain that time... and I loved every second of it." Sohyun opened the door of my car and went out, making me sigh in disbelief.

I took my extra jacket from the back seat, putting it over her shoulders so she doesn't catch a cold. I picked her up by the waist, spinning her around as she held her arms out in pure bliss.

I love seeing her so happy.

"Dance with me, Gyu!" She wrapped her arms around my shoulders and we slowed dance just like before. We giggled and said sweet things to each other, forgetting about all the problems around us.

Damn it, I fell too hard for this girl. It's going to be a hell of a struggle attempting to let go of the person who's most precious to me.

"Shh, why are you crying?" Sohyun pouted.

"I'm not. It's just the rain, sunshine! These aren't tears, I'm a strong man." I cupped her cheeks and she laughed.

"Whatever you say!" She rolled her eyes in astonishment. "You always have my support."

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Sohyun~

"Beomgyu's sleeping over!" I told my mom once we got home.

"Why are you two soaked in rain? Go take a shower before you catch a cold!" She then realized what she has just initiated. "Separately. Beomgyu can use your bathroom, and you come to mine."

"Too bad we can't shower together." I joked to my boyfriend and mom gasped.

"Where did you learn that?" Mom whisper-shouted to me as I went to her room.

"Somewhere." I giggled before going into the bathroom. 

I took a shower with warm water, letting the steam disintegrate from my skin and into vapour. The shower is really that one place that allows me to drown into my thoughts.

Thinking back, I would have never expected for Beomgyu to have such a big impact in my life. I've never felt such a strong connection with anyone before, that's why I keep believing he's my other half.

I don't know why I'm so scared to lose him, even though I know I won't. Maybe just from past experiences? I'm also afraid that this might just be infatuation; well to him at least. I'm more than sure that I love him. In some ways, I feel guilty for questioning his love when he clearly expresses it.

If I ever lose him, I will also lose myself.

I got out of the shower and dried myself up with a beige towel. I feel so refreshed and much lighter.

"Oh, you finished quickly?" I asked Beomgyu as I saw him and my mom chatting while she cooked dinner.

"Nope, you just took too long." He smirked.

Dinner was filled with laughter and joy as we told each other stories and recalled memories that were very dear to us. The food was also delicious, and I can tell that mom has grown fond of Beomgyu.

"Your place is very welcoming." He took my hand in his as we entered my room.

"Do you want to live together after high school? We're almost done in a few months." I suggested and his face dropped.

"That would be great." Beomgyu answered but he sounded uncertain.

"We don't have to! It's just a suggestion." I assured, but he shook his head.

"Please don't hate me after I tell you the truth." He looked down onto the ground. That came out of nowhere.

"What is it?" I began to get nervous.

"I'll tell you in two days."

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I just finished writing my last essay for my politics class:') It was hell and probs the worst essay I've written in my life, lol i still don't understand the topic even tho i already finished it hahah :D feels so good but I still have my final exam </3

Song: ROCOBERRY — I.O.U