But when you told me the whole story I felt like throwing up

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|Weeks|
Obito's POV
She came to me during the night. I awoke from my sleep as I felt her standing just outside the bedroom window.

I quickly and quietly got out of my room as an attempt to not wake up my sleeping girlfriend, Rin who was laying by my side.

I exited my house and the anbu was there. She stood awkwardly wearing her ANBU uniform and looking at the ground. Avoiding eye contact like always.

I closed my eyes for a second trying to form my thoughts into words. The strange anbu and I had already come to an agreement that whatever relationship we developed during these past weeks would come to an end.
I would marry Rin and the lonely anbu would try to resolve her issues.
But I didn't ignore her tonight because I was happy she was standing before me.

Before I could speak, the lonely anbu spoke. She was the one who spoke first after months of me initiating conversation. It was usually me who spoke first or spoke in general. She would just stand there in silence waiting for me to speak or do anything in general.
But tonight, she spoke to me first.

"I'm pregnant". Were the first words she spoke. Her voice was free of emotion but my attention was focused on the fact that it was the first time she talked to me first. It was always me initiating conversation. Then her words made sense.

These past weeks I had been giving in to her. Despite not even knowing her name. Despite her ramblings about traveling back in time. Begging me to remember her without telling me a name or a piece of history that could trigger memories of me and her in the past.

"A million lives, I would look for you. I would travel back in time so that you can be with me. So that you can belong to me." She would whisper to me between kisses.

"You're pregnant?" I repeated holding her hands, but soon my lover's hands slipped from mine, and I looked down at my hands. The moonlight showed a crimson warm liquid. Blood.

"I'm sorry, Obito." She continued. "Something happened."

"What happened?? Let's go to the hospital-"

"Itachi-kun...." She said and I froze at the sound of his name. A name I began to loathe since my relationship with her began. I was jealous of the feelings she still had for him. I'd come to think that she'd love him forever.

"Itachi-kun wouldn't talk to me....even after I told him that I was pregnant....so I killed his wife and daughter."

I looked down at her. Her uniform covered in blood. "I couldn't resolve my issues the same way you and him couldn't stay loyal to those women you lay with. Live with."

I was shocked at her words. I knew she had issues. Our romantic relationship sparked over her multiple suicidal attempts because Itachi wouldn't talk to her. Then after I comforted her, she began to follow me home. Standing outside my window during the night, waiting for me. Not saying or doing anything. Just standing. And on the seventh night of her doing this, I had given in to her.

"Do you at least regret it?" I asked her.
I couldn't believe that I had feelings for someone who would kill the innocent so easily. I refused to believe that she was a bad person. I honestly believed that she was trying to improve her mental and emotional health. If she regretted what she did, then there was still hope.

"I need to leave. This is goodbye." She completely avoided my question.

"Where will you go?" I asked her feeling sadness embrace me. She hadn't even left yet, but I had already started to miss her.

"Orochimaru-Sama is like a father to me. He will help me get out of this mess. But if you tell anyone where to find me.... I will kill myself," she threatened me again, knowing well that I didn't want her to die.

She turned around and began to walk away, and my body began acting on its own.

"Why don't you stay? If you regret it I'm sure the village will pardon you. They won't kill you." My attempts to stop her from leaving the village were laughable. And she did smile. A smile that quickly dropped and was replaced by the same numb expression she wore since the day Itachi left her.

"You seem to care about me so bad, yet you don't even know anything about me." She found amusement in my feelings for her.

"That doesn't matter. Maybe with time I can earn your trust. You can tell me your real name and past...and-"

"You will become hokage in a few weeks. It will seem awfully bad that the future hokage cares so much and defends a criminal like me," she said. And with that she walked away from me.

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|next morning|
Obito's POV
"Do you remember that girl that died years ago while being a member of the Akatsuki?" Hidan woke me up from my thoughts during training. It was the first time in a while that he talked to me. There really wasn't anything for us to talk about.

"I do." I replied not really interested in the conversation. Scanning my surroundings. Secretly hoping that I would see the lonely anbu hidden the trees. Looking for me. Saying that she changed her mind about leaving. Saying that she wants to get better. That she wants to stay here with me.

"Well that girl.." Hidan began talking again. The girl's name was Valentina but we couldn't even use her name due to how guilty we felt that the young girl died and we couldn't even save her.

"Well the lonely anbu looks like her. Looks like Valentina."
Hearing her name brought back thousands of memories and things began to make sense.
The anbu's anger towards me at the beginning. All her ramblings and pleadings for me to remember her.
How could I have forgotten her?