My therapist has recommended that I start journaling again, so I thought who better to share my everyday struggles with than the people who help me through them?
So, this one is for my fabulous chosen family.
As promised.... here is a picture of my new hoodie—
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I understand it won't be for everyone, as it's more on the religious side, but here is a little something about me... I believe in God, I believe He is real, and works through my life every single day. I believe He sent all of you to me to help me through the times I'm in, and I believe that He kept me here for a reason.
That verse it mentions Philippians 4:13 says "I can do all things through Christ, who gives me strength." And I firmly believe in that. I try and live my life with nothing but love, and I approach all people with love, embracing them with open arms. Now, I'm not going to preach to you about how you should believe what I believe, because reason may have you believing in different things.
For example, I work with a guy, his name is Jacob and we could not be more opposite on the religious side of life. He believes in Baphomet, the deity with the goat head, all that, and I respect that, good for him. He was raised a Christian, but witnessed a lot of "Christian" acts that weren't really pure and with love. That's not his fault.
I, have witnessed the same, but I've also seen Christian acts that were pure and filled with love. I've met more people who live their life the same way that I do, approaching with love and open arms, that I know there is something bigger out there. Given the things I've gone through over the last twelve years of my life, it's God that has truly helped me through. Whether it be keeping me here, or sending me tiny little guardian angels that live all across the globe.
There is a line in another song that says, "There's not a day ahead You have not seen," and I know that I'll be okay no matter what because that line rings so true to me. I'm not going to go through something that God doesn't believe I won't make through. (If I worded that right?)
Alright, end of religious values—
The safety pin, I put there myself. I'm not sure if anyone has read about it or heard about it before, but the safety pin resembles a safe place. For anyone who needs help, anyone who needs someone to talk to without judgement.
I keep it on every hoodie that I own, and I try to wear one on my shirts as well, but I'm hardly ever without a hoodie.
Have some useless facts about me:
-I am 5'2
-I don't care for pumpkin spice anything
-I hate a lot of men, it's an actual wonder that I'm straight
-I hate when my feet get hot, but I can't not wear socks
-I don't use products that are not cruelty free, and yet —
-I can eat steak like no ones business
-Monkeys and Elephants are my favorite animals
-I can't ever pick just one favorite song, I have hundreds of favorites
-I used to live in California
-I get migraines on a daily basis, but nothing seems to help
-I won't ever admit how I'm really feeling
-In eighth grade, I was the only girl in my exercise and fitness class
-I completely showed up every one of those boys with a mission
-I was in choir from sixth grade until I graduated
-I was in five different choirs my senior year; four of which I had to audition for.
-I'm a theatre kid, and I have no shame in that
-I can make myself cry
-I have an irrational fear of heights, but I love to fly.
-My senior year of school, my history teacher saved my life by noticing signs of depression before anyone else in my life.
That last one, I kind of told some of you about. If you want to hear it, let me know, I'll put it in my next entry.
