it was only a kiss // noah schnapp

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noah <3

um noah
9:27
noah?
9:29
wtf is wrong with you
9:35
are u going to fucking answer?
9:42

cece what?
are u okay?
is everything okay?

no noah, i'm not okay, everything is not okay. it was only a kiss?
only a fucking kiss?

omg cecilia, i didn't mean it, i only said it because i panicked

you panicked?
i've never heard a worse excuse

what?

i dont understand, you told me you were going to ask me to be your girlfriend, we kissed again after the first one? am i just a girl for you to toy with her feelings? why'd you do this

i panicked cecilia, i told you, if you don't believe me, that's on you. but if it was only a kiss i wouldn't have done it again, i wouldn't have told you i wanted us to date. i wouldn't tell all my friends i'm in love with my best friend. but i do all those things. for you. so you still think i'm lying?

noah it's whatever, i need a break. i don't get how you could just so aimlessly say that. panicked or not. maybe you're embarrassed about the kiss. maybe you really didn't panic, it's still so upsetting. and yeah, i'm in love with my best friend too. but right now i want nothing to do with him.

cece
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cecilia
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please
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fucking hell cece
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i'm so sorry
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cece come on
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lev

god bless. what is wrong with that boy

he said he just panicked smh

what?? that was his excuse?

yeah

thats so awful. i'm so so sorry cece. i love you forever and i'm always here

i love you too lev, and i honestly think no matter how corny it sounds, i'd so much rather be alone rn

i completely understand love, let me know if u need anything

"cece? honey, you have to talk to someone." mom said monday morning. last night was restless, i didn't sleep much, i've already ran out of tears. "i texted levy last night. leave me alone." that was all that was said for most of the day. i got up once because there was a knock at my door and someone had left a lunchable and 3 bottles of water at my door. later in the evening levy came and sat outside my door and talked to herself. i didn't respond, i just listened. she stayed a few hours. only one day i haven't seen noah, one day i haven't talked to him. i dont know when we'll talk again, maybe a week, maybe a month, maybe never.

a week passed by, i talked to moms a few
times, levy came by a few more days and talked at my door, she came in yesterday and sat at my desk and talked. i ended up turning down the offer on 8 figures as victoria windsor. i didn't have the motivation to go film anything.

noah

tue, may 31, 3:44pm

hey cece, worried about u
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wed, june 1, 8:51pm

cece, i'm so sorry, text me when ur ready. i love u and miss u
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