My Idiot Bff

23. A part of me

yeah. it's been weeks since that stupid show happened. i'm trying to move on. i'm trying to show everybody i'm okay.

"salamat ha?" i told mark after i broke up with him.

yes. i did break up with him after that night. he tried coming into my house but he can't enter my room. i don't wanna see him during those days. coz i just remembered every punch they did. but now, it's all getting better.  

i hope so. 

but since me and frank were still going at the same school and we have the same orgs, it's not impossible that our paths cross each others. but, it's like were strangers. totally strangers. or better call it, invisible people. 

"sam! were doing our last recital and i want you to be the lead actress since you're a senior and might as well guide the rookies. and this is a favor" the teacher asked me that.

then i saw her talking to frank. i bet it's gonna be same thing as mine. 

i know she's setting me up to this coz my partner would be frank unless he'll not accept the offer. i don't want to accept it coz i don't wanna work with him again. but there's something in me that says do it anyways coz this will be the last. and do it to let thepeople know that it doesn't hurt anymore. 

where all infact, it still hurts.

sometimes, it stings me to see him around all these girls flirting with him at school and when he sees me staring at them, he ignores me and ignores the girls too. there's a part of me that is happy and says, "ha bitches! you'll never gonna get him." but then there's also this other part saying, "he didn't even dared to smile." and this part is the saddest part.

i'm never gonna be the same again. it's always gonna be a 50/50 decision because of him.

now playing: if i let you go by westlife ♪♬♩

i was under a tree. thinking. headphones on. music up. crying.

"tama na yan. lalo kang papangit niyan. oh, oops. i forgot that you only talk in english. smile beautiful. hanky?"

he handed me a handkerchief. it's so unusual for me to see boys with hankies. but because of him, it became all normal.

"expecting someone else?"

yes i did expect someone else. he smirked at me and sit beside me. it made my cry more.

"oh tama na sam. they might think i made you cry. condolence to your heart by the way."

i pushed him hard but he just giggled.

"what's wrong with you mark?" i asked him defiantly.

"haha chill. pinapabigay ni boss." he handed me a pad of paper. its the script of our play. i didn't remember i accepted ms. anna's request yet.

"i don't wanna do it. tell her im sorry." i gave him the pad back

"is't because i'm gonna be the lead man. your partner?" 

"huh? you're my what?" his partner? but i thought frank's gonna be my partner. that's why i don't wanna be involved in the play.

it's because of him..

"why? expecting someone else again?" he asked and gave me his smirk

"don't give me that stupid smirk of yours. psh! fine! i'll do it then." so i grabbed the script back

"joke lang. si frank partner mo. hahahaha" so i pushed him HARD

"hahahahaha joke lang ulit. hahahaha ano ka ba sam. masyado kang obvious. bat di kapa makipagbati sa kanya? ang labo niyo talagang dalawa."