The La Asuncion's Muse

Chapter 27

"Let's go Amari, you need to rest." sabi ni Nate..

He accompanied me here to my Dad's room, days have passed and I feel better than before, we're here for about an hour already but I think I should wait a little bit more.. maybe he'll wake up.

"Five minutes." I said, narinig ko siyang napa buntong hininga bago muling nag salita.

"Pang apat na beses mo nang sinabi iyan, we can't be here for any longer.. Tito also needs to rest." he said.

He's right.

Tumayo na ako at sumunod sa kaniya, pagkatapos mag palit ay huminto ako sa pag lakad.. when he didn't felt my presence, he stopped and looked back at me.

"Why?" he asked.

He's been there for me all this days that I'm having trouble to everything, my therapy is still going and he never get tired of me.. I haven't even explained to him about my relation to Alexus and I feel guilty.

"Can I.. talk to you?" tanong ko pabalik.

I saw how he smiled at me painfully when he realized my intention.

Ibinulsa niya ang dalawang kamay at nag patuloy sa pag lakad, I followed him and we turn to an empty hall. Ibinalik niya ang tingin sa akin at inintay akong mag salita.

I breathe in and out before responding.

"About Alexus.. I planned on telling that to you sooner, and I'm.. sorry that you have to know it that way." panimula ko.

"I-I like you.. Nate, but I love him." I looked down on my feet as I told him the truth.

I waited for a reply and that doesn't took so long.

"You don't have to feel sorry for me.. It's my choice to get fully attached to you Amari, and I'm fully aware that there's a result where I will get rejected." I looked at him and he smiled at me again.

I flinched a bit when he pulled me to a tight hug, hindi sinasadyang narinig ko ang pintig ng puso niya.. and it was unbelievably thumping crazy even though I didn't saw him run.

"But I'm still gonna be here until you recovered, you can just big brother-zoned me.." he laughed a bit.



After that confrontation, I told him to go home and come back tomorrow.. sa una ay hindi pa siya pumayag pero sa huli ay sumuko na rin.

Kasalukuyang nag iimbestiga pa rin ang mga pulis sa nangyari, they've had my point of view already but I don't know what's taking them longer to find out who did this to us. The main suspect they're investigating is our driver which is nowhere to be found, my mind kept on telling me that's there's something wrong..

Thinking about something wrong.. my step mom's rarely visiting the hospital, nakakapag taka lang dahil dati ay halos anino lang siya ni dad kahit saan ito mag punta.

Ate Lalaine on the other hand..

"Yooo sis! kumain ka na ba? I got you this.. and by the way, dumaan ako sa university mo. I saw your boyfriend, he said he won't make it here kasi kailangan pa niyang mag review para sa incoming exams pa niya this week." hindi ko maiwasang hindi malungkot sa ibinalita niya.

Well, that explains why Alexus aren't responding to my text and calls.. mag i-isang linggo na rin siyang hindi nakakabisita sa akin, I wonder how many minutes it will cost him to just text me back... why can't he just do that?

"Amira! stop that.." napa lingon ako kay ate Lalaine nang pagalit siyang mag salita.

"Stop what?"

"You're pouting! you think that's cute? nakaka-pangit kaya 'yon." then she rolled her eyes on me.

I don't know why.. or since when but.. ate Lalaine and I were pretty much close to each other like a real sibling, and I love it that way.

Nag lagay siya ng mesa sa harap ko at ipinatong doon ang binili niyang pagkain, then she jumped on my bed and sat in front of me.

"I'll help you eat." she said before starting to dig in.

She bought me this unfamiliar kind of soup and some other side dishes, some of it are still illegal for me to eat but ate Lalaine insisted.. she said there's no such thing as illegal if no one will find out.

"Nga pala.. anong pinagkaka busy-han ni mom? I haven't seen her for a while now, sila ate Ruby nalang at manang ang nakikita kong humaharap kay dad." I asked, I've been itching to ask her that pero napapangunahan ako ng pangamba na baka pagtakpan niya ito.

"I honestly doesn't have a whole set of answer, pero sa umaga hindi ko siya naaabutan sa hapag. I asked her once and she said she's just doing a little bit of dad's work and other family matter." sabi niya.

"Why do you seems like you're not believing her?" tanong ko ulit, nag kibit-balikat siya bago sumagot.

"I don't know... she looks like she's hiding something from me, and that's odd." ate Lalaine, saglit akong napa isip pero binago na rin niya ang usapan.

"Anyways, Tim and I are going out for quite some time now.. Do you think we'll be fine having relationship?" malawak ang ngiting sabi niya.

I smiled as I was happy for her.

"Isn't he toxic?" I asked.

"Not at all." sagot niya saka sumubo ng kanin.

"Then I guess you two will work out." her smile widened after I said those.

Hindi rin nag tagal ay umalis na si ate Lalaine, I was left alone every night, ni-request ko ito sa kanila dahil gusto ko ng oras para sa sarili. I layed my back down to my bed and stared at the ceiling.

I'm kinda hating the white empty ceiling here in the hospital, I'll never get used to it.

Visiting dad on his room came into my mind, pero isipin ko palang ang kaliwa't kanang makinarya na naka palibot sa kaniya ay tila guguho nanaman ang mundo ko.. the doctor said that he's on coma, his skull was cracked open but his brain is luckily safe, though sa pag gising pa niya masusuri if there's an unusual effect it will cause.

He got too many critical wounds that were meant for me, I can't help but to blame myself.

Tears came flowing after one another, tumingin ako sa itaas para pigilan ito and I cursed when it doesn't work.

Tumayo ako at pumunta sa CR, with the use of my lucky left hand, I splashed some water to my face, napa tingin ako sa salamin.. and I looked pathetic. My reflection doesn't define me, she's telling me to kill myself.. every time I looked at her in the mirror, she's telling me to give up.

Dad is the first one who makes me feel unwanted, he's the first one to make me realize that this life isn't worth living for.. but in just a simple act like a father to me, I came running back to his arms.

And I did all of this to him.

"I-I should die. I s-should kill myself." after I said those.. I heard a loud ringing throughout my head.

I tried to cover both of my ears but the sound feels like it was built inside my brain, I shouted in pain when it started to get louder. Pictures of the incident came hunting me again.

Blood.. Shattered glass.. Dented metals and the sound of the siren.

"AAAAAAH." I shouted in pain that feels like my head is being chewed, napa luhod ako sa sahig at bago pa ako mawalan ng malay ay gumapang ako palabas ng bathroom.



I woke up in my hospital bed while a female nurse is checking my vitals. Bumaba ang mata ko sa kaliwang kamay nang mapansing may naka saksak dito.

"What's this?" may pagka-irita kong tanong sa babae.

I knew that it was a dextrose, but for what? sabi ng doctor ay hindi ko na ito kailangan.. why is this here again?

"I'm sorry ma'am, but you'll be needing that for the mean time.. bumagsak po kasi ang blood sugar ninyo kagabi, the reason why you fainted." she said, calmly.

Ibinalik ko ang ulo ko sa unan at pumikit.

"What time is it?" I asked.

"6:48am po." she said.

Nate usually come at 8am together with my therapist Dr. Marcello, at paniguradong alam na ni doc ang nangyari kagabi, he'll probably tell Nate about that and Nate... he'll force me to have someone by my side.

Ugh.

Bumangon ako at saktong dumating si ate Ruby, she helped me get cleaned and eat the food she brought for me.. I also ask her to accompany me to my Dad's room for 30 minutes.

Pag pasok sa loob ay nanikip ang dibdib ko, he's still wasn't making any progress.. I couldn't even cry a tear as if it's already dried from the last time I cried a dam.

It hurts.. it's hurting more than anything I've been through.

"I love you Dad.. please come back."