Her Luna

Chapter Nineteen

Nancy's place was like a prison as she had guards everywhere. There was always pack members around but this was ridiculous. She must've had the entire pack here watching our every move. I tried going to my coffee stand but even with Linnea and Greg with me, she wouldn't allow it which really pissed me off.

"This is bullshit, Nancy! You reject me, kick me out, and now you won't let me leave? What kind of fuckin sense does this make?"

I yelled storming back upstairs. I felt like a damn kid being told I couldn't play with my friends. As full as the place was right now everyone was trying to stay away from us. Someone I didn't recognize jumped out of my way as I approached the top. I paid him no attention. 

"There's another alpha here. And you said you were going to call- 

"It's daytime!" I turned and shouted at her who was right behind me. I hadn't realized she was that close or I might've done things a bit differently. Unfortunately for me it was too late.

I heard a growl and before I could react, she grabbed me by both of my biceps and slammed me up against the wall so hard the air got knocked outta my lungs. Her face was scrunched up in rage that betrayed her by a moment where her feelings weren't blocked. Suddenly everything came crashing in on me at once.

"I've had enough of your rejections and attitude. Time and again I have let you slide and get away with it hoping things will sink in but it never does."

She let go of my arms and I fell to the floor crying not for what just happened but how stupid I've been about everything. 

I don't know how long I sat there lost in my thoughts on how hypocritical I've been. Long enough that Danny, Linnea and even Sasha tried comforting me.

"She'll get over you leaving,  just give it some time." Linnea had said but I actually left before going to Seattle.  In some ways I was never fully with her.

"I don't think that's a good idea. You really ought to just let her cool off first" Sasha said as I headed to Nancy's room down the hall.

Ignoring her I took a deep breath, my heart racing even before I got to her door. I knew she was already well aware I was there giving me no chance to gather my nerves before entering. 

I closed the door with my back up against it for support. My eyes were shut but I could feel her gaze burning into me.

"Do you know why I stayed with Jake?" 

"I really don't give a shit, Crystal! Just get out before I lose my temper." She answered in a stern warning.

"He could be scary sometimes, especially when he lost his temper or had been drinking. He was also a lot like you in that he was controlling and demanding." I continued, despite the venom in her voice.

"Crystal...I'm fucking warning you…"

I took off my shirt letting it drop to the floor. Nancy shifted, her brow crunching up in confusion 

"Wh-what are you doing?" Her tone was now shaking and without the normal confidence it usually had.

"My sister and others didn't understand that sometimes it means the person cares. That they wanna protect you and keep you safe"

"I undid my bra letting it also fall as I took a couple steps closer to her."

"Stop this" She said barely audible as she licked her lips and sat up straighter never taking her eyes off me. I could hear her heart race with mine 

"Unlike you, Jake or anyone else never made me feel safe...they just were one thing that you weren't... men."

I unfastened my jeans and slid them off. My underwear I did pause for a second as it's always been the most scary. I did my best to throw it to the back of my mind. If I wanted to show Nancy I was done running, this was a part of it.