Quarantine trouble

Day 12 part 2

Chris POV

I know he's disappointed I told him no. I could see it in his face even though he tried to hide it. I want more than anything for what we have to work cause I can't lose him I just don't want to rush into things. I'm deep in thought when he walks back out onto the balcony and sets the coffee down in front of me. "Thank you" I say. He smiles and nods and we sit in a comfortable silence until it starts to rain. We head back in and dry off. I head to the kitchen to fix some food when the lights flicker and a big boom is heard from the thunder. All of a sudden it goes dark and we have no power. "You got to be joking" I say as I stand in a dark kitchen.

"you ok" I hear street call out as he walks into the kitchen. "yeah just no power" I respond. "well good this its still day time out. I know we can't open the windows because of the store but we should still be able to get some sun light in." he say and goes to pull the shades back. as he finished opening them I wrap my arms around him from behind and kiss the middle of his back. I lay my head there and we just stand. his hand running up and down my arm. I go to pull away but he turns around and takes me into his arms. "and where do you think your going?" he ask. I smile up at him "well I was gonna go boil some water for some pasta cause I'm hungry" I tell him. he grins and picks me up and throws me over his shoulder. I start laughing "Jim put me down" I tell him. he laughs as well and sets me on the counter. "pasta coming up ur majesty" he says a bows. I ruffle his hair and watch him get to work. He turns the gas stove over and lights it with a lighter . he has taken his shirt off from earlier because it got wet with the rain and he never put one back on. I can't but help admire the way the muscles contract in his back. I do t realize I'm staring until I hear "see something you like" Jim ask. I look up at the smirk on his face. " no If I'm being honest Luca looks better" I say and hop off the counter to grab plates and make drinks. he dosent respond just turns back to cooking. once the food is done we sit down to eat.

street is still quite. "jimmy you ok" I say. "huh, oh yeah I'm fine why" he responds and puts more food into his mouth. " your just awfully quit" I say and twirl my pasta on my fork. "no I'm fine really" he says and smiles at me. its not a genuine smile but I nod my head as not to push the issue to much. once we finish eating and clean up we both walk into the living room and sit on the couch. "so now what" I ask. he just shrugs his shoulder. I sigh "are you mad at me because I told you I would move in with you" I ask. he's quite then says "no not at all. its your decision I just though it would be a good idea." "one day Jim I promise but I think we need to fogiure out how were gonna navigate work and stuff. I mean if they find out on of us has to leave swat and I don't want that." I say. "but I would. your not listening to me when I say I would leave swat if that meant I got to be with you. yes I love my job and yes I love the team hell they are more family than any of my real family ever was. but you I'm so in love with you it hurts. I can't go a day without thinking about you and when all that stuff happened with ty and Kiera I thought I had lost you. and that Chris was the worst thing I have ever felt. because you are me best friend and the love of my life. because with out you in my life I don't have a reason to continue to get up. you are my reason and I want to spend the rest of my life with you. so yes Chris I would give everything up even my job if it meant that I got to be with you." he says

I sit there I don't know what to say. street stands up and walks out of the living room and into his room and shuts the door behind him. I start to cry. god why do I always screw things up. I curl up on the couch when my shine rings. it deacon. I ignore the call and he calls again. I text him that were fine and he responds that he will keep calling until I answer the phone. I go to the bathroom splash some cold water ion my face and sit on my bed as I answer the call.

ft call

c: hey deacon what up

d: hey Chris what's wrong

c: nothing we lost power because of the storm

Deccan walks to the locker room and closes the door

d: its just u and me no team or anyone around what is wrong

c: idk what I'm doing. he confessed his love to me and then I didn't respond and he walked away

at this point fresh tears are in Chris eyes she trying not to let out

d: well do you love him

c: yeah I do

d: so tell him. Chris if there is one thing I know is that you and street and meant to be. everything you two have been through and your both still right there next to each others sides and supporting each other.

c: and how do we deal with work

d: you let me worry about that ok. you just enjoy the next 2 days off before you come back to work and ill figure out the res. but Chris go tell him. he's being in love with you for so long. don't push him away because he might not come back if you do

c: ok thanks deacon. tell the team were ok and this stays between us

d: will do and it stays between us. Chris you know I love you and I want what's best for you and as much as I don't want to admit it street is what's best for you

c: thanks deacon love you too

I get off the phone. ok I need to go make things right.