Solace (Complete)

20. Goodbye

I am sitting in my office watching at the text from kol, totally confused. When I told him that I am going to New York with my boss, he implored me to meet him before going even though we have met two days ago. When I said I am tired and can't meet and will meet after I come back then he said me the strangest thing, 'life is too short I am not sure if I will see you again'. I don't know what to say and what to think of his words. I didn't say anything to that but I told him that I will be there.

Now I have to complete all my work and go to meet him. And yes I bought Ryan flowers today too but this time I was able to sneak them in his office without him knowing that it was from me. I wrote the same note but this time I didn't buy him chocolate. I think he don't like them now.

At 5 I was done with all my work and was good to go. So I carry my handbag and my things and went out to my car. Kol sent me his location, he told me to meet him there. When I checked the location once I was in my car, it was a secluded area towards highway. I didn't think too much of it, because friendships lies on trust and I trust him enough. He has always helped me in every way. I have found a good friend in him but Mia is still my best friend because she is the one who bears my mood swings and has been stuck with me since we were in kindergarten. She was always the victim of my tantrums but she never once left me. And this is what friends are for , they accept you with all your imperfections. They try to accept you as you are. It's not like she never advised me to get rid of my anger. She would always say that

'Cali I am your best friend, so if you will throw tantrums at me. I am obligated to bear them, I will always let you vent your anger on me because I would do the same when I will be angry that is what friends are for they laugh, they fight and they cry together. But with time you have to make a little change in yourself not for anyone else but for yourself because not everyone will let you vent your anger on them. If you want to change you have to do this for yourself and maybe for those who you love the most but only if that change is benefitting you and the ones you loved and as long as you are happy'

These are her words not mine but i believe she is right. She knows everything about me except my addiction. And I don't want to disappoint her, neither Beth, Chris, Ryan, Emma, Dad and even Mom. I want this to end but I don't know how I will do it.

I reached the location after half an hour, the road was secluded and his car was parked at the side of the road with him sitting on the bonnet of his car. It wasn't completely dark yet. When he saw me coming he waved at me and jump off of his car. I parked my car behind his and went to him.

"Of you weren't my good friend I would think you want to kill me here" I joked.

He laughed at my joke.

"So you admit that I am your good friend?" He asked grinning at me like he got his prized possession.

"Huh in your dreams" I said and rolled my eyes at him. We both laughed after that.

"Come with me I want to show you something." He said but towards his car's backseat. He pulled out two bags, one was Macdonald's one and the other Nike. He pushed the Nike one in my hands change into these. You won't be able to walk in your heels. He said to which I complied. They were the Nike's latest ones and I loved them at first glacé and they were exactly my size. I looked at him surprised.

"A pre birthday gift for you" he said.

"But my birthday is 4 months away" I asked at him confused to why he is giving these so soon.

"I don't know if I will be here then" he said his eyes had a longing look in them.

"Okay what with all this crap you are on about? Are you going somewhere?" I asked agitated at his cryptic words.