Solace (Complete)

23. Caught

A/n: okay, to my readers I am thinking of keeping this story on hold for a time being may be until I get some response as I am not getting any good response from you guys, no votes and comments from you guys. So I feel like it's of no use to write anymore. And thank you to all those who are silent readers❤

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After dinner Ryan got a call from his friends. They wanted to hang out with him so he dropped me at his apartment and went to meet his friends. He offered me to come but I didn't want to go so I declined. Its been an hour since I am back at his apartment. I was exploring all the rooms in his house, one of which is his office. Then I got bored and went to my room, I picked my joints and went to balcony. I am sure he won't be back for another hour and I will be done by then.

So here I am smoking joint after joint currently I am on my 7th, and I am pretty much high by now. My eyes are burning and my vision is getting hazy.

"Okay this is last one" I told myself.

'But you said that at your 6th one too' my inner voice said.

'Whatever" I scoffed. I must be looking like a lunatic talking to myself, at that thought I started giggling. I dragged a long puff and was about to exhale out when I notice a figure standing by the glass door. I focused hard on the figure and it was Ryan looking at me with a shock and hurt. And then I started coughing as my lungs couldn't take it.

"Hey" I said Hazily trying to seem as normal as I could be. His eyes were on the ashtray on table that was infront of me, there was a box by side of the tray.

"I I c-can explain" I started but he cut me off.

"Go to your room" his jaws were clenched, he is angry at me.

"Listen..." I again started but he again cuts me off rather rudely this time.

"I said go to your fucking room. NOW" he yelled. I stood up and went to pick the box of joints when he stopped me.

"Leave them here" he said, I was about to retort when I saw his fists they were clenched so I thought better of it and left them there. When I came in my room I laid down in the bed and sleep overcome me in an instant.
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I woke in the morning with a massive headache, and went to bathroom. I slashed water on face and looked at myself in the mirror my hairs were like a nest of birds. My eyes red and puffy, I brushed my teeth and then flashes of previous night came and my hands stopped on their accord. Oh my God, oh my God, he knew. He saw me with .. no no no this can't happen. He will hate me now, I can't let him hate me with that thought in my mind I ran out of my room to his room but he wasn't there so I ran towards living room. There he was sitting on the stool around the kitchen counter, I made my way towards him. He had two plates in front of him with breakfast in them. When I came near him and was about to speak but he beat me to it.

"Eat your breakfast" he said and start eating his. I stood there for a moment then I do as he said and started eating. I don't want to upset him anymore. I can tell he is angry at me.

After break fast he stood up and picked our plates. He then put them in the dishwasher and turns towards me. Now he was standing infront of me the only thing that was separating us was kitchen counter. He dig his hand in his pocket and dragged out somethings. They were my things, my lighter, my joints and my phone. I must have left my phone there too last night. He placed those things on the table in front of me. I look at my things and then at him.

"I am sorry" I didn't know what to say so I said what came in my mind. I don't know why I am apologising.

"Why are you saying sorry to me?" He said after a long moment.

"I don't know" I said and looked down in my lap.

"Do you hate me now?" I asked him and a tear left from my eye. His face was serious then he sighed and came towards me. He rotated the stool on which I was sitting towards him and sat on his knees infront of me and then he held my hands in his strong one's.

"No calista I don't hate you. Hell I I can never hate you. I am just angry that you chose the cowards way out. You chose this shit to destroy your life. I am angry at myself that why I wasn't there when you needed someone the most and had to find your solace in drugs." He said, looking into my eyes. His eyes held so many emotions for the first time anger, hurt, guilt,l-love and all those emotions were for me.

"I will not ask you when and why did you start using them. Its upto you if you want to confide in me, I promise you I will be there to hear each and everything. But what I want is you to stop using them, I know it will not be easy. But I believe in you. We will get some help and you will get rid of this. But what matters is would you want to get rid of it, not for anyone, not for me but for yourself?" He asked.

"If I get help everyone will know of my addiction. The media, my parents, my brother, Beth everyone will hate me. And I had tried once to get rid of them but I couldn't. I am a very weak person" I said now crying. He wiped my tears with his hand.

"Nobody will hate you, If you want we will not tell anyone. I have a friend who works at rehab, he will help you and nobody will know. I know this time you will get rid of this, Cal you are a very strong girl, one of the strongest girl I know. I believe in you, I know you will not let me down" he said and places a kiss on my both hands.

"You think so?" I asked unsure of myself.

"Yes" he said with a smile.

"Will you do this for yourself?" He asked me to which I nod. After that he fetched a glass of water for me. I took a sip or two but my phone start ringing.

"You should take it, it's been ringing since morning" he said taking the glass from my hand and handing me my phone.

I looked to see an unknown number but I picked it.

"Hello, who is it?" I asked.

"He calista is it you? Thank God you picked it. I have been calling you since morning" someone said.

"Uh who is it?" I asked again.

"Oh sorry it's me Tom, you remember? Kol's friend" he said.

"Oh hey Tom, yes I remember but why are you calling me?" I asked.

"Actually it's kol.." He said but stopped.

"Kol? What happened to him?" I asked now suddenly remembering our last meeting.

"He.. he you should come here" He said not telling me anything. I stood from my seat and yelled at him.

"Tom tell me what happened to kol?" I asked with anger.

"He is in hospital, please come. He wants to see you one last time" he said and my world stops at his words. Hospital, I knew there was something wrong with him but I didn't pay any heed to it. He needed me and I left him alone. What kind of a friend am I?

"Tell him I am coming, and also tell him if anything happened to him I will.. I will" I couldn't find any words and stopped.

"Please tell him to be alright till I come" I pleaded him, my voice slightly breaking.

"I will" he said and hanged up.

"You okay?" Ryan came on my side and asked.

"I need to go back, kol needs me" I said and went to my room to take my belongings. After that we went to air port to go back. All the way to airport Ryan didn't ask me anything, he only assured me that everything will be alright. But my mind wasn't believing his words, I had this nagging feeling something terrible is going to happen.

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