Solace (Complete)

9. Ryan Miller

I have send my resume to so many designers in these past days but I haven't yet received a call not even from one single designer. I know who's hand is behind all this. My great mother. She is not making it easy for me. I know I am talented and I can easily get a job because of my work. But no I am not getting any.

I really want to confront her but it is of no use. She will never admit it on my face. I hate her more now. I don't know what to do a week has passed three more weeks left. My cash is also running out, because of my drugs. What will I do then?
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Today is the day Ryan is coming, and Miller's are throwing a huge party for him. Our family is also invited there. As much as I hate parties, I have to be their for Elizabeth and Stephen. Tiny part of me also wants to see Ryan. When we were kids he was always there for me. Chris and Ryan were like my protective bodyguards.

Ryan will always fight with Matt whenever he would tease me. I used to spend so much time with him but then he started staying away from me. And then he went to New York. I don't know if I did something wrong but that really hurt. He was like a strong pillar for me. But then he went away from me and I was left alone.

I huffed and started to get ready for the party. I went for black off the shoulder dress with full sleeves. It reached slightly above my knees. I paired it with black heels. I had my hair in loose bun with some strands escaping from the bun on my face. I go for red lipstick and light glittery eye makeup. I was looking bold and perfect. I am not the girl I was 8 years back, the girl Ryan left behind.
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When I enter the venue where party was held, everyone look towards me. For a moment I got nervous then I told myself that I am strong. So with a lot of confidence I gracefully walked inside. As I was walking I can hear people murmuring about me. Some complimenting, some jealous and others just smiling at me lovingly. Mens are just ogling as if they have seen a piece of cake. I ignored all of them.

"Is this Calista Forbes? She is so beautiful"

"She is so pretty"

"Her dress is so beautiful"

"Huh She is just okay. I am much better than her" last comment does caught my attention but I ignored it.

I went towards Elizabeth and hugged her.

"My doll is looking so beautiful" she said as she took my hands in hers. Stephen also smiled at me.

"Have you met Ryan yet?" She asked her face beaming with happiness.

"No" I told her. She looked around for him

"He was here a minute ago" she said.

"Hey it's okay I will meet him. Don't worry. You enjoy your party." I smiled at her, I looked around and found Mia. Her father are also partners with Miller's enterprises so ofcourse she would be here too. I made my way towards her.

"Hey cali, you are catching so much attention tonight. Every guy here is looking at you." She wiggles her brows at me smiling.

"Not you too Mia. You know how much I hate attention. I am feeling uncomfortable here" I told her.

"Okay. Okay." She laughed.

"Have you seen him. He is so handsome, oh God if I didn't had a boyfriend, I would have definitely gone for him." She told me looking in space dreamily.

"Who are you taking about?" I asked confused.

"About Ryan ofcourse. He has gotten more handsome even more than before." She told me beaming with happiness.

I didn't say anything. She turned towards me.

"You haven't met him yet right?" She asked me.

"No" I huffed.

Why everyone is asking me the same question.

She looked around the hall until her eyes landed on someone and she looked towards me and pointed at someone behind me.

"There he is" she said.

I slowly turned around to see where she is pointing. There stood Ryan with my brother and some other guy, in his glory. He is as handsome as the day he left. Only difference is he looks more mature now, not that he was immature before. He was always the one who thinks with his mind than his heart.

He was dressed in black three piece suit, his muscles flexing around his arms. His hairs neatly gelled back. He has slight stubble on his face now. His green eyes so captivating, you can lost in there.

Wait. What the hell am I thinking?
Mia's company is messing with my mind. Or may be it's time for my dose. I shook my head to free myself from these type of thoughts.

"Come on, let's go meet him." She said.

"No way I will not go to him. If he wants to meet me, he will come himself." I said arrogantly.

"Really cali" Mia scowled.

"Yup. I am hungry, let's go eat something" I said and walked towards buffet. She came trailing behind me.

As I was eating and talking with Mia, I felt someone's gaze on me. But when I looked around I found no one. Ugh!
As I was looking around my eyes met with the green ones. He was coming towards us with Matt and Chris trailing beside him.

"How's my baby sister?" Chris came and kissed my forehead. I smiled at him.

"Oh my new best friend, how are you?" Matt said coming to hug me to which I reluctantly obliged and rolled my eyes at him.

"Wait when did this happen? Is this true" Mia shrieked probably surprised.

"Yes but he is not my 'best' friend. Just a friend for now." I told them.

"I am hurt" he feigned hurt clutching his heart to which I eye rolled at him.

I then look at Ryan who was silently watching us. He was looking at me as if he is reading me.

"Hi Ryan" I said.

"Hello calista" he said looking straight at me, his face was blank. He was making me uncomfortable, it felt like if he will keep looking at me like that he will know my every secret.

Mia, chris and Matt were having their own conversation. After a long silence, he said

"You have changed" he said the words which proved what I was thinking before true, he is the only person who felt the change in me just by looking at me. I stilled for a moment.

"Don't we all have to" I stated gaining my confidence back ignoring his piercing gaze.

He nods but didn't say a thing.

After that we didn't say anything. Chris and Ryan excused and went to meet some of their old friends. And I also went back home. I couldn't stay there anymore.

I changed into my Pjs, after locking my room door. I sat near my window with a joint in my hand, I light it up and got lost in the momentary bliss. Temporarily forgetting all the worries around me and falling into my own small world of glee.