A LITTLE PINK IN DARKNESS. (MDLG Story.)

FORTY-ONE: Panic Attack & Talk with Family.

(Time Skip 9 oclock a.m. Saturday Still.)

(Mostly Shannon Whelans (POV))

Gracelyn Wests (POV)

We all just finished breakfast and since my dream last night I have been big since I woke again around seven Shannon has been keeping her eyes on me making sure I am ok ever so often I hate that I freaked her out last night, but I could control my nightmares if I wanted, I am also so mad that I had one after not having them since the day I met her. looking around the room I see that Quinn is holding Casey and Megan is cuddled up with them both on the couch, I am in mommas lap cuddled up we are all watching SpongeBob this morning and love it, it is like we have always done this and been a family. But I also miss my auntie Em I havent seen her since the second time I woke up in the hospital after the bomb and I dont know why she wont see me; we went to mommas parents house yesterday and I had so much fun with grandma and grandpa they are so silly and playing with little Megan and little Casey who knows she is a little now was so much fun we just couldnt play like before until Casey and I are fully healed.

But momma disappeared for a while to see aunty Em, but I never got to see her, but I did get to send her kisses and a hug with grandma I think my nightmare was because all of the last three weeks events are catching up to me and not getting to see my aunty is adding to it. I whimper feeling myself getting upset and I hate it momma and I still havent gotten to fully talk about who are as our individual selves and I wanted to try and talk with her I just hope she doesnt want to get rid of me when she learns all the despicable things my uncle did to me shivering at the thought. I snuggle further into her feeling her hug me tighter making me look up at her she is looking at me with this sad look on her face. Causing me to whimper again I no like to see her upset either whimpering more I feel my throat tightened and tears start to blur my eyes making me cry.

Crying I just snuggled as close to her as I can get feeling my body shaking and starting to hurt, I cry harder hating all these thoughts and pain, I want to feel good and happy longer than just a little while. I feel her rubbing my back and rocking me, but I dont hear her or anything it is like white noise like silence, but you can still hear muffled sounds, clinging to her I start shaking more when I accidently move my injured arm which causes me scream out into her chest. Feeling myself slipping and falling into my little space and darkness I just let go wanting to forget everything for a while please, please stay with me momma.

(Time 9:12 a.m.)

Shannon Whelans (POV)

Not knowing what is causing my baby to have a panic attack I look at Quinn for help as I feel my baby fall into me full silently crying looking back down at her I see she has slipped and by the looks of her face she has slipped really tiny gulping she is still crying and all I can do Is rock her and tell her everything is going to be ok, and her mommas got her. I look up at Quinn again and she has a sleeping Casey in her arms and half-asleep Megan on her side she speaks saying, Take her to your room Shan and try skin to skin contact, do you have baby bottles and stuff for her? sniffling as tears fall down my face for my babies pain, I nod saying, Yeah the little stuff for all them are in the cabinet just above the dishwasher in the kitchen. She nods smiling saying, Ok I will make her a bottle and you go get her calmed yeah, I need to get these sleep heads settler here before I do.

Sniffling I wipe my eyes and stand-up cradle my baby closer as she clings to me still silently crying with her face between my boobs heading out of the living room and to the left up the stairs, I get to our room first door on the right and go inside looking down at my baby I bounce her a little saying, Oh, baby mommy has you sweetheart lets get you feeling better yeah. Walking to the bed I pull the covers back putting pillows against the headboard I set down getting comfortable I lay a pillow under my arms to support Gracie as I go to lay her down so I can get my shirt off she starts freaking out again and crying loudly reaching for me which she tries doing with both hands and she tugs on her left causing herself pain which makes her scream.