Feelings were the worst for him, they were like his worse enemy, just in him. He had come to learn the hard way, nothing was going the way he wanted it to go. Taehyung had tried calling, texting Jin, but nothing seemed to work. He had gone to his work a few times, only to find out at last that he took a break, he was disappointed, in himself.
"I'm such an ass..why..why did I have to say that?.." Taehyung slammed his hands onto his face, he's been doing it for the past days. The last time he saw Jin was five days ago, and he was feeling miserable.
It was currently Saturday, the day getting more slower and boring. He had come to spend his time looking at his phone, but not seeming to do anything on it. Every text he send, every call he tried, Jin ignored it. He felt horrible, all of these feelings were just horrible, he was horrible.
He picked up his phone, with a sigh, dialed the same number, laughing a bit as he saw the decline. He groaned, he forgot where Jin lived, Jin wasn't at work, Ken would less likely speak to him and he didn't even like him, all his possibilities were thrown out the door.
His mind was blank, nothing good would come into it, nothing good, nothing that could help him. He was lost, stuck in such a frustrating question he didn't have the answer for. He was more lost than the word lost, his question was unanswerable. His mind wasn't much of a help at all either, it didn't have the courage to find Jin and apologized with his heart of how much he regret saying the words he had told him.
"Taehyung?..Can I come in?" His father's voice was at his door, it had been long since he last talked to him. He laid on his bed, looking at the ceiling as nothing but silence filled the room. Another knock was placed on his door, breathing in and out before getting up and letting his father in the room.
"Your mother is worried Tae-.." his father stopped as he stared at Tae's eyes; he's been crying without noticing. His father frowned, he never liked when Tae would cry, less if he didn't know he was crying.
"Taehyung-ah..come here" opening his arms, Taehyung mout formed a small smile, entering his dad's arms, resting his chin on his shoulder. He felt warmth in them, safe and somewhat sound. His tears couldn't stop from coming, but he didn't make no sound.
"It's going to be alright Tae, we all make mistakes, but we learn" his father's hand caressed his back. His words were always something Tae wanted to hear everyday. His father knew what to say, or do, whenever he would get in trouble with his wife. He was the mastermind of apologizing, something Tae wished he got from him.
"Why do I mess up? Why father? Why?.." he closed his eyes, feeling too much.
"Let it out Tae, all out, lose all of it"
...
Jin was a mess, from the break he had took from work, and ignoring Taehyung. Jin was distraught, to believe the words that came out of Tae's mouth hit him more than anything, he didn't want to believe it but he did more than he should have.
He never really liked showing how much one can affect him, he always had to keep a smile on. Yet to hear the words, to know that no one would come to like him, to hear them from the person he never expected, messed him up.
"Jin! Open the door no? I swear I'm about to break this door with my foot if you don't open it!!" Ken knocked loudly as Jin only sat on his bed. He felt like disappearing into thin air.
"Kim Seokjin! If you don't open this door in this second, I swear I'll break it down!!" Ken yelled and yelled as Jin blocked it all out of his ears. He didn't care if his door broke down or if Ken was mad at him for not opening the door, he was in his own world, no one could disturb him there.
"Fine then! I'm coming in! One! Two! Thre-..three?" Ken's leg was up in the air as the door opened, revealing Jin's face that was met with Ken's foot. Slowly placing his foot down, staring directly at Jin, who stared at him with blank eyes.
Ken smiled a bit, wishing to receive a smile back, yet all he received was a back and a door shut. It happened fast, not being able to process way just happened, looking at the once opened door, sighing. He gave up, he knew Jin was just someone who wanted to be left alone, he should have known since the beginning that this is what he wanted, to be left alone.
"Fine..I'll leave, call me if you need someone" and with that, Ken left Jin's home, getting into his car, hesitating but leaving and going off. Jin heard the car leave, sitting on his bed as he stared at the wall. He didn't mean to be an ass and ignore Ken as well, but he just didn't want to see anyone.
He had enough of being the 'nice' guy for too long. He meant, that it was good being nice, all nice things come with nice owners, but sometimes, nice things come with horrible breaks. He needed to refresh his mind, from everyone, the whole world, everything, even himself.
Words of everyone, from customers to anyone he met in his life, he kept it all to himself, and to guess Tae's words would make him lose it all, it surprised him. He knew Tae could be a bit too much, from the way he acted when he gave him his free order, yet he wasn't prepared for his words in return.
The world always had to hurt the nice ones, and gift the wrong ones. That's at least how Jin saw it. He believed in it, but sometimes he wish he didn't.
A ding! interrupted his thoughts. He had forgotten to mute his phone as he had been doing the past days. Wanting to ignore it, believing it was Taehyung, yet picking it up as something in him made him. It wasn't Taehyung, it was his brother. He smiled.
'Your ass better open the door to eat. Ken told me you've been in your room for the past days and I'm not letting you starve yourself for a dick.' He laughed at the text, quickly getting up as he went to the door. Smiling, he was received by a hug.
"Hyung!" Jin's heart felt better at the warmth of his brother, it's been long since he last seen him.
"Now, where's that bubbly brother of mine? I only see a sad kiddo" Jin smiled, receiving a kiss on the head as he was taken to the kitchen and placed on the chair. He loved his brother dearly, mostly as he was able to act like a younger and not be ashamed of it.
"Hmm..where is he? I don't see him?" Jin joked, as Seok-joong only rolled his eyes. Placing a plate of the famous spicy tteokbokki, Jin smiled as he stared at the plate.
His stomach made a few flips, the familiar food, feeling, he wanted to hate it, but his stomach was flipping and flipping as no tomorrow. He stared at the food, wanting to eat it but his hands made no movement. His brother noticed.
"You're not going to eat?" Jin smiled, picking up the chopsticks and digging in. It made his stomach better, grabbing a bit of rice that was on the side and placing it in his mouth. He hummed. The warmth of the food made his heart fill up with joy. His brother for sure knew how to cheer him up.
"Thank you hyung, I love you!!" Kissing his brother's cheeks and putting the sauce on it after, he continued to eat, forgetting everything, as food was his only love.
For now.
