T R A I T O R

Chapter 4

And now all this time is passing by

As I headed towards my garage to work out and keep my strength up, I mentally felt as weak as a newborn. It's been a week or so since we called it quits but I just can't deal without hearing her voice. I can't concentrate on myself at all and It's difficult to sleep. This is something I can not be dealing with at the moment since summer break ends in only a few days, I will be headed for Belgium my home country to do practices, qualifying, and race. 

All this time is passing by without her encouraging me to do my best. I always told Kiara to keep her imagination alive and work on herself and keep her mind as productive as possible whenever I left but she hated it, being alone in her apartment, she hated her job because her payment was horrible and there were times where she couldn't even afford the rent, I often offered to pay but she just wouldn't or couldn't take it as she felt too guilty. There were times where I just wanted to take her with me to the Grand Prix's but she just can't deal with the fame.

I can't take it anymore. As I got up and checked my phone. once again there was no notification from the person I wanted most from. I punched the wall in my garage and had to tell myself to calm down as my anxiety was eating me from the inside and out. I can't keep acting as if I'm doing okay, so I went on my calls and dialed her number. Kiara answers on the third ring. 

"Kiara" I whispered as tears were dripping down my face, "I need to know if your okay, I will come to pick you up your only minutes away from me, please we need to talk about this".

"Lando, I have nothing to discuss with you, goodnight" I could tell she had been crying as she sounded husky and it was like she was sobbing over the line.

She hung up on me, I yelled as loud as I possibly could my neighbors would have heard. But I don't care I need to see her, feel her, and talk to her face to face and inform her that I would never dream to be with another woman other than her... Kiara is mine and I will never let anyone else take her away from me unless she chooses to do so.

As I realized it was already 11:45 pm I headed towards my bathroom and to the times whenever Kiara had a shower she would always place one of my tops on and she would also sniff the scent that I left on the shirt she was wearing. To the times when she only wore my oversized top and just a thong, it was as if she wanted me to take her right at the moment in that time. She used to wake me up with kisses all over me and it used to make me get butterflies and think about how grateful I was to have someone like Kiara in my life. But now she was gone.