Just an Act

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"And you have to introduce these sponsors" the manager ran us through the list.

Being the announcers is hard, lots of people and names while trying to keep the crowds attention. I can see her terror rising and subtly squeeze her hand.

"No need to worry while I'm here" I mutter trying to keep the manager from noticing my obvious distraction.

"Just don't want to mess up" she smiled lightly

"I got your back, promise"

"Ehem?" The manager crossed his arms, "Are you two going to be a distraction for eachother?" He raised a brow at the interlocked hands

"No of course not" i laughed it off letting her hand go.

After a lecture and more instruction we were let go to get a hair and makeup team to go our looks. Apparently it wasn't good enough what we did ourselves.

Resting in the makeup chair I tried to relax and think things over. I know I have feelings for her and...im sure she has feelings for me right? More than a friend obviously.

I got so...excited at her place. She could be the one for me. Our relationship has evolved so much so fast.

I have grown to miss her when she's gone and hope to see her. I feel...lovesick. I want her in every way. Heart, mind and body and I want her to have mine.

(*Spoilery area* 💣💣💣 just Hawks backstory bit)

My thoughts run straight to my parents. They committed so soon...too soon if their commitment can even be called anything of affection. Then again I came along so there had to have been some form of affection.

I want her as more than a friend. I want her to love me. Show me how she loves. Dad in that dream...said it'll never happen but is he right? I get to be around her. Share memories with her. Hell I have even kissed her a handful of times.

(End 💣💣💣)

That last kiss blew me away and I crave it now. Crave the affection and...love? She pays attention and cares. She even remembers my favorite food places and is willing to put up with my stupid antics

Could I even say i...lo-

"Sir" a voice purred pulling me from my thoughts

"Hm?" I grunt looking up at the hair lady, "Sorry I was in thought. Did you need something?" I smile awkwardly

"Quite possibly" she smiled, "I see you have no ring"

Is she trying to..."Sorry I have a girlfriend"

"Girlfriends don't mean shit. They come and go" she cooed straddling my lap

Readers POV

The show starts any minute and I'm nervous as fuck! I don't want to make a fool of myself up there. There are so many people at this event I feel suffocated just thinking about it.

Hawks isn't out either. I scurry to his dressing room and walk in knowing he should be just having the hair and makeup done.

I about choked when I looked in. A girl with her hands buried in his hair straddling his lap.

No no no...shit no no no no. I hiccup on a sudden sob drawing their attention.

"Wait no this isn't-!" Hawks pushed the girl off but its too late. I already saw.

He lectured me on flirting with others. Once I start thinking I could have something... something real with him he does this!

My body is burning in high temperatures at the sudden flush of anguish and rage.