Teenage Dirtbag || JJ Maybank ||

37. Heart to Heart

I stir some pasta in the pot, softly humming to myself. JJs hands snake around my waist from behind and wrests his head on my shoulder.

I reach a hand up to run a hand through his hair. "I'm so happy to have you, I don't deserve you" he continues nuzzling his head into me.

I'm quick to spin around. "you deserve everything this world has to offer and more JJ" I tell him truthfully. His lips press to mine in a meaningful kiss.

Adrenaline flows through my body as his hands travel up my shirt to my bra-less breast. "Jay" I whisper through the kiss. I pull away and push his hands down. "today was a long day, let's go cuddle and watch TV"

He reluctantly agrees despite wanting to fuck to take his mind off things. I put pasta in two bowls before we go sit down. JJ lays his head on my chest once we're done eating.

My hands rake through his damp greasy hair. The smell of teenage boy that I'd somehow learned to love while living here fills my lungs.

I haven't talked to my parents in nearly a year. But Im grateful for that and the amazing life I live here. "Cami" JJ says seriously. I hum in response. "Luke said you offered your life to him... is that true?"

I gulp at his words and my heart rate increases. I take one deep breath before deciding it's best to explain. "you where passed out so I was sitting with you when he came out with a g-gun, he said he was going to shoot me. So I told him sure, go ahead... But that if he did he-... he couldn't hurt you anymore"

In fear of JJs reaction I continue heavily breathing. He squeezes me tighter and I feel a tear drip onto my chest. We sit in silence has I rub his back. "I don't know what I would've done if he shot you... I would've never forgiven myself. Promise you want do that again ever. I love you and I can't lose you"

The seriousness in his voice was very clear. "I can't lose you you're all I've got" he repeats. I feel my eyes fill with tears, he was terrified. "I'm not going anywhere, that was just an in the moment thing. JJ look at me, I love you"

He nods his head. I continue to play with his hair, occasionally kissing the top of his head. It was almost like I could feel the pure fear in his body.

JJ is 100% the strongest person I know, mentally and physically. Honestly if I where him I would've given up years ago. Maybe that's the depression talking but I definitely would've.

"I'm just scared... I would've killed him if he shot you"

I smile slightly, not knowing what else to do. "that would've wound you up in jail bubba" I say. He doesn't lift up his head to look at me just kisses my chest. "I'm gonna end up there eventually Cam" he half heartedly chuckles.

"no you're not Jay, you're nothing like your dad." I tell the boy. He kisses me once more before nuzzling back into the crook of my neck. "goodnight CeCe, I love you" my boyfriend cuddles into me.

"I love you to Jay"

Today was on hell of a day...