Teenage Dirtbag || JJ Maybank ||

55. Fights

"holy fuck that's heavy" JJ groans while carrying a shelf out into his truck to bring to the dump. "or maybe you're just getting old" Kiara snickers.

Everyone burst out into laughter. JJ definitely has his heart set out on surfing lessons considering he's been talking about it for weeks now. "probably my back feels like Im 85" he states, stilling struggling to carry the shelf.

John B grabs the other side and helps him carry it into the bed of the truck. After many hours and many disagreements later the whole garage was cleaned out. JJ stares at it through the doorway with his armed crossed. The biggest grin sits on his face.

"you're cute when you're proud of yourself" I giggle while 'booping' his nose. He smiles and pulls me in for a quick kiss. "mmm I love you" he hums happily.

"I love you too"

The next day we began to paint. Small arguments happening every now and again but nothing much. Although they weren't bad I started overthinking what JJ had said before. What if we do end up like all those unhappy couples?

"that's not how you do that" JJ glares at me. "ok then if you're such an expert how about you do it yourself!" I snap, I didn't mean to it just kinda happened.

I begin to make my way inside "yup just run away like you always fucking have! Everything's my fault now isn't it!?" he yells, frustration laced into his tone. I stop in my tracks at his words. "oh fuck you" I scoff.

I knew it was stupid to get this pissed off about something so stupid but I couldn't help it. I lay in bed, scrolling through my phone angrily. Eventually I decided to call my mom and tell her what was going on.

Although I was aware she'd tell me to talk to him it still pissed me off that she did. She didn't understand my anger.

JJs words swirl about in my head "yup just run away like you alway fucking have" those words kinda broke me. This also didn't help my fear of losing him or us drifting apart.

As bad as it sounds I was almost happier when we where just dating. Yes, I'm beyond happy to be married to the guy I love but things where far more simple then.

I go into the kitchen after almost 2 hours so I could make something for dinner. As I do I totally ignore JJ who's sitting on the couch watching sports. He's quick to notice my presents and stand up, rushing towards me.

Before he hugs me or anything I whip around "did you mean it?" I ask. He shakes his head "no, no, no I just- I was just frustrated and tired that's all love" he says, almost looking scared.

"why would you say it then?" tears begin to gather in my eyes. JJ looks me in the eyes and pushes my hair behind my ear "sometimes I just say the first thing that comes to mind without thinking. I know I need to work on it but for right now will you please forgive me? I cant lose you too you're the only thing I have left"

The blonde pulls me into a hug and I whimper into his chest. "I love you; and I always will Camilla" he says.

I slowly nod "I love you too" I say "but for future reference can we talk about it first next time?" I ask. He nods his head "yea that's a good idea" the blonde hums. Marriage is a crazy thing.