My Big Brother

Chapter 38

Please say this a dream. A twisted, dark dream.

"HELP!" I scream. Feeling like no one has heard me. I fall to the ground in sobs.

A doctor runs in a pushes some button screaming, "Code blue! We have a code blue!" Death.

He cannot die. He is so many things, to so much people. He is a husband, a father, a hella good one if you ask me, a brother, a best friend, an idol.

Louis is wheeled away to an unknown place. No one has talked to us yet. I slide down the wall I'm standing against, crying. But it's more than crying, sobbing. He is the last person of my family I have left really. Why does everyone I know have to die?

I'm in the room where Louis once was. That seems like centuries ago... how long have I been here crying? I'm so lost in my own mind.

I'm joined by an unknown person. The person just sits next to me and wraps their arms around me. Liam.

I look at him gently and I'm startled by him grabbing my chin with his hand.

"Babe.." He trails off. "How long have you been crying?" Sounds of concern are in his voice.

I don't respond, my voice too frail and worn out from the crying. He removes his hand from my face.

"He's the only person I've got left," I say into my balled up legs after a long period of silence.

"You have me, Elle, Eden, Declan, all the boys, Elise, Perrie. Not to mention all my friends love you."

"No, you don't get it. You have all your family. Everyone."

I continue to cry and cry. My body just cannot seem to stop.

*5 hours later*

I'm in a chair when I wake up from a "10 minute nap". It's now 5:30 p.m. and Liam is no where in this room.

I wipe the sleep from my eyes, and get up from the chair. Ouch, I think to myself that chair was not comfortable to sleep in at all.

My instant thought is, "where is he?" I'm really confused at this point, Louis is no one to be seen.

I walk into the hallway and spot a curly head kid. Harry? That kid was literally just released from here.

"Harry?" I walk over to a large chair in a the hallway. He looks up at me from his slumped down position in the chair.

I gasp as I see him, but he returns the look on his face when he sees me.

"I've been crying nonstop." He replies answering the concerned looks we shared. I sigh and nod as I mention for him to scoot over in his chair. I join him and I place my head on his rather large shoulder.

"How have you been feeling?" I ask him.

"Sore, and very fucking grateful. I've never realized how much life and just living means to me."

"Yeah, understandable. I almost lost my second brother, my sister and now I might lose my brother. This fucking sucks."

All Harry does it sigh. I understand how we are all feeling. Sad.

"I hope you know that he loves you. You're his best friend and you mean the world to him," That is all I can think to make him feel better.

"I'm sure he thinks the same way towards you. I just don't want you to lose him because he is all you have left," He replies, but I'm not sure if that made me feel better or worse.

"To be honest, I don't even know what is wrong with him," I shortly reply.

"The doctors think he has very critical heart failure. Plus you know his back pain? That was finally diagnosed. Scoliosis." Harry laughs. I don't know why he is, but he is. "This is just so funny. Of course this happens to us."

I've run out of possible words. My mouth is dry and brittle causing me to not be able to speak. Louis deserves so much in this world. He is so some many peoples' worlds and when or if he goes, the fans are going to be utterly devastated.

We're interrupted by an annoying nurse saying she has to "clean" the room for a patient who's going into labor. That's gotta hurt.

"Come on, Harry," I stand up and offer my hand to help Harry up. All of us are so emotionally, mentally and physically drained.

When Harry and I walk into the hallway, everyone is here. Even my mum is here. I immediately walk up to speak with her.

"Mum, what are you doing here?" I ask only because she never has been around for anything. Even when my 3 children were born.

"My son is dying." She says with no sympathy, just pure evil. I swear I could've just walked up to here and backhanded her right there.

"Where are my kids?" I ask Niall, the closest person to me. All Niall does as a response is nod in the direction of Liam.

I make my way quickly to Elle, Declan and Eden. It feels like ages ago I saw them.

"Mum!" Elle stands up as soon as she sees me.

"Hey baby girl, how are you?" I ask her as a sit down in the empty seat in between her and the babies.

"Good. How is Uncle Lou?" I'm quite impressed that she can even comprehend this situation.

"He's having some bad days lately, but I hope the doctors will fix him and make him all better!" I say in my most cheery attitude I can force myself to have right now.

I start to doze off and think...

"Jingle bells! Jingle bells, jingle all the way!" Louis and I chant a classic Christmas song in the middle of July.

Me and him were ridiculous. Why do you keep doing this to yourself? My subconscious asks.

Louis is such a good father. Our twins are the same age basically and he is so good to them. God, now I'm crying.

My train of thought is interrupted by Liam tapping my shoulder and pointing to the doctor in front us.

"Well, we know what is wrong with Louis."

Lol this sucked but this book does so (:

happy Friday! and did you see zayns hair?? yikes... love you guys though!

Sara