My Big Brother

Chapter 39

Lily's POV

All I can hear is an old man with a gray, curly mustache. He is saying so many different things at once I can barely understand him.

"So you're saying his heart is failing, and you give him 2 weeks? Tops?" I say with a hint of sass.

"Yes, I'm afraid so," Louis' doctor with that ugly mustache says.

I'm so devastated. So completely and utterly devastated. He is my best friend, my brother, he's so many things to me. Now he will be gone in two weeks. You don't realize how much you take your family and everyone else for granted until they're about to go.

I feel like I'm in the middle of an ocean. Helpless, drowning. My breathing is very short, and cutoff.

I standup as soon as possible. All this seems like a dream, but when will I wake up?

I grab the twins and I'm out of the hospital. Elle is with Liam, I know you're all thinking where she's been.

Liam's POV

Lily. That's my number one concern right now. Yes, I should be concerned about Louis but - yeah Lily is my concern right now.

I hate making Elle run, but I have to find Lily. I turn the corner where the elevators are and I spot her golden brown hair.

I also spot the two baby carriers, and her struggling to run with them in her arms.

"LILY!" I yell at her down the hallway. All she does is ignore me, but I can't blame her. She's mad at me.

I'm now outside, the wind crisp on my cheeks. It's dark out now. I barely spot it, but I see her get into her car.

I tip-toe to her car, slowly getting inside with Elle on my side.

"Lily..." I gasp at the sight of her. So sad, so unlike her. All she does is look up at me the slightest bit. Her head is leaning on the steering wheel, her elbow muffling her sobs.

"My... brother... is.. dying." She hyperventilates. A part of me is dying to see her like this. I wish I could do something to bring me her out of this feeling, this pain.

I've always been able to heal her, now I can't. I feel guilty that I cannot.

"Baby..." I gasp and bring her into a hug. She tucks her face into the crook of my neck and continues to sob.

"WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME? IT'S SO UNFAIR!" Her screams are muffled by my body.

We are here for another solid 10 minutes until she releases from my embrace and says and wipes her nose, "Let's go home."

I nod, and get out so she can leave. I double check the twins are locked in, which they are.

"Drive safe, okay?" I tell her and she sadly nods.

Lily's POV

I feel like I am drowning, in an unknown substance. Not water- but sadness. My mind, my heart, my body drowning in it.

I don't feel anything. The only thing I can feel is numbness, everywhere. I pound my hands on my steering wheel so hard they start to bleed.

"Why me?" I sigh and lay my head on the wheel. I lift my head a few moments later, and start the car.

I arrive home to see Liam watching TV in the living room through the open window.

I open the front door and drop my keys on the desk right next to the door. I drop my coat, sulking all the way up the stairs.

"Babe! Wait," Liam whisper yells in my direction. I know the moment he gasps at my sight that I do really look bad. "Oh babe.. were you crying all the way home?"

I nod, my mouth to dry to speak. As I'm walking by the kids rooms, I look back at Liam as a "check up" to see if he tucked in the kids. He calmly nods to my gimmick.

Turning into my room, I strip all the clothes from my body. Leaving me in only my underwear.

As I slip into bed, Liam speaks to me saying, "Lily... I just want you to know he loves you more than I've ever seen someone love someone. I have to give it to him, without him I wouldn't know you. Anyway, he would jump in front of a bus for you. Anything, you name it. He would do it. I just want you to know that okay?"

"Liam, you don't have to cheer me up like that," I croak. But yet both him and I know he has to. "But thank you. I love you."

The next morning I wake up to see the ground covered in a fresh blanket of snow. Elle is astounded by it.

"Mummy! Can me and Daddy go out and play?" Elle practically screams.

"Yes, love you and Daddy surely can."

Liam stands up with a slight sigh. What's up with him? I questioned myself ever since the Louis news.

He walks into the mud room with Elle's hand in his. I stand up to get the twins from their continuous nap. I first grab Eden then Declan. They're still so small and frail. Well, Lily they are only a month old. My conscious reminds me.

I carefully take them both down to bring them to their mobile cribs. They coo at each other, it's the cutest thing ever.

I spot Liam and Elle playing in the snow. It's so cute them having so much fun in the thing I despised as a child.

I wish I could sleep like a baby, the twins are already sound asleep again. Good times when I was able to sleep the whole before Elle, Eden and Declan.

I walk into the mud room and grab my coat, mittens and cute beanie. I lock at the doors and windows because the twins are sleeping in there.

"Guess who?" I say covering Elle's eyes. She gasps in complete excitement.

"Mum!!" She turns around and hugs me. She's always has been a daddy's girl, but I do enjoy this nice gesture.

Liam smiles knowing it took me a lot to come out in the snow. The snow is coming down pretty hard now, which causes a pretty scene.

The snow is coming down in thick white spheres. Very serene, peaceful. I could stare at this winter wonderland for hours. You're cold, so it makes it perfect.

I'm interrupted by a snowball encountering my head. I turn my head so fast Liam starts to make a break for it. Oh silly Liam, it's on.

hey thanks guys for sticking around. I suck at updating so I apologize!!!!! I wish I had more time to write but I'm actually kinda busy this summer. wow right??? but thank you for reading and voting it means a lot!!! love you guys so much

sara