Secret of a Straight Fudanshi (Pinoy BL - Book 1 of S.O.A.S.F)

Chapter 29 - Stonger Than Ever

Joker's POV

"What! Seryoso ka, Joker? Wala 'tong halong biro? Gusto mo si Chester? Hindi ka naman lasing o wala kang lagnat?" tanong ni Lucas sa akin.

"Oo, seryoso ako. Mukha ba akong nagbibiro?" sagot ko sa kanya habang pinapakita ko ang seryoso kong mukha.

"Ta*na, pre, kung si Harry, magegets ko pa eh. Pero si Chester? Ano nakain mo pre! Hindi ka magugustuhan nun!" sagot ni Lucas.

"But, lately, nakikita kita with Harry. What's that? What's the deal?" tanong ni Seph.

"I was just... using Harry." sagot ko sa kanila.

"T*ng *na mo, Joker, walang halong biro. Pinapaasa mo 'yung tao? Hindi mo ba nakikita 'yung itsura niya kapag kausap ka niya? Sobrang saya niya!" tanong ni Lucas.

"I'm with Lucas this time. Joker, what were you thinking? Why use Harry? Tingin ko medyo... sumobra ka na. That's not right." sagot naman ni Seph.

"I know, I know. But can you please let me explain?" hirit ko sa kanila.

"Sige! Ipaliwanag mo 'tong kap*tan*in*hang ginagawa mo! Nanggigigil ako sayo, alam mo 'yon?" sagot ni Lucas.

"Alam ko, I did the worst thing. But it was the only way."  sagot ko.

"No, there are other ways, hindi mo lang inisip." hirit ni Seph.

"Sandali, hindi pa ako nakakapag explain!" sagot ko.

"Game! Make sure na magiging justifiable 'yang explanation mo. Kung hindi... nako ka talaga!" hirit ni Lucas.

"I was using Harry so that he will fall out of love... para mawala ang feelings niya kay Chester. I knew it back then sa tuwing matatagpuan ko silang magkasama, there's something going on between them. Sa oras na ma fall out of love si Harry, I knew that I'll have the chance to breakthrough and to capture Chester's heart. Alam ko it won't be an easy ride, and may masasaktan akong tao, but I have to do it, since If I can't be with Chester, then nobody else can." I explained.

"T*ng *na mo, Joker. Pwede pasapak isa? Hindi, sampu! Bakit naman gano'n, pre? 'Di ka ba naaawa sa tao?" hirit ni Lucas.

"Naaawa ako, pero kailangan ko lang gawin 'yun. Either hindi ko makuha si Chester o walang makakakuha sa kanya." I answered.

"Why? Why si Chester?" tanong ni Seph.

Flashback

Chester was my old childhood friend since we were young although I'm 2 years ahead of him, our ages didn't matter to me. Magkaibigan ang parents namin and his parents were always out of the country, that's why Chester was always staying out our house. Para ngang doon na siya nakatira sa bahay namin at ako na rin ang naging nakakatanda niyang kapatid since only child lang siya.

Madalas din wala ang parents ko because of work, that's why kami lang ni Chester ang madalas magkasama noon. Ako ang nag alaga sa kanya when nobody else was there for him. We were so young back then, he was 6 and I was 8, but I already have a mind of a matured person back then since my parents taught me to be independent.

As time goes by and lumaki-laki na kami, I developed a feeling for Chester and I thought it was an unconditional love or just a brotherly love... but akala ko lang pala. I became so attached to him that I wanted him more than anybody else. Para sa akin, he's still the old little child na inaalagaan ko and ayaw kong iwanan and I want him to be mine for the rest of my life.