ECSTASY

CATCHING FEELINGS

Antonio's POV

After coming from the doctors the other day and being told I have a tumor on my brain had me rethinking life. You would expect me to rethink life everyday based on my job but having cancer is something I couldn't control. I can control being in the mafia.

Since I've met Shakayla I can't get her out of my mind. I know I agreed to just having sex but I'm starting to feel things. When I look in her beautiful eyes they sparkle a little, Her smile or when she's on her period and all we do is watch movies that she hides her face when she cries or when she's focused she bites the side of her cheek. I just can't stop thinking about her.

Shakayla told me everything that has happened to her and how she would never let anyone hurt her again the way the people in her past did. That's why she's so nonchalant and try to push me away. When I seen her leave out the house with that outfit she had on I was pissed off but it's nothing I could do. She had me so stuck that I didn't even want to look at another women. Usually I would have got sucked off or something but I just felt like it was wrong.

I went straight home and got in the shower and went to sleep. I had to rest to try and take my mind off of her.

Shakayla's POV

So Antonio insisted on coming over this afternoon after I told him my period was on and he wasn't getting anything because I was cramping.

I took a shower and got comfortable. Even though my period only lasted for 4 days the first two was always the worse. Every time it's the first two days I don't do anything. I eat what I crave, pop pain relief pills and watch movies all day. I was moody too so I watch sad movies to cry, I don't know why. As I was eating my hot Cheetos and sitting on the couch it was a knock at my door. I went to the door and opened it.

"Hello Antonio."

"Hello Shakayla, how are you feeling?"

"Hmmm I don't know, you guess how it feels to have blood cots coming out your vagina and being emotionally unstable.." I said sarcastically.

"Sorry but I bought some food for you and I bought you a heating pad." 

"Aww that's so nice." I gave him a hug and he gripped my ass. He ended up touching my pad and chuckled.

Me and Antonio have been getting really close friendship wise. He has experienced me on period three times already. We even started using the bathroom when the other person is in it. I don't think it's weird nor do I think it's feelings involved.

Lying like shit.

"What are we watching first today?"

"Uh Antwoine Fisher."

"Oh ok."

"Wait you've seen it before?"

"No but sounds interesting."

"It's sad."

"I figured that." I rolled my eyes at him, grabbed the snacks and food for us and headed to the living room.

I sat down and Antonio sat next to me. I ate my pop corn and laid on his shoulder crying at the movie. I made sure he couldn't see my tears. I honestly hated crying  in front of people but with Antonio it felt different. When the movie was over I sat up and looked at Antonio. He had an confused look on his face.

"What?"

"Did you like the movie?" I asked.

"Yes it was a good movie what's next?"

"The shack."

"Ok."

"You look tired." I said to him.

"I am a little."

"Lay down."

My couch was big so it was enough room for the both of us to lay down on either side. I turned on the movie.

I laid down on the other side of the couch and I was started to doze off when I felt Antonio slide behind me and put his hand on my waist.

"Antonio what did I say about cuddling." I said acting annoyed.

I actually liked it.

"Oh shut up." I did as he said and he closed his eyes.

"Only this one time." I whispered. I few minutes later I dozed off.

I'm not going to lie and say I didn't like the feeling of Antonio spooning me but I felt myself feeling a certain way about him and I knew I shouldn't.

I knew I was starting to gain feelings when I started to love when I looked into his eyes they turn soft  hazeled color and when he twist his ring on his pointer finger when he's concentrating, also when he runs his hands through his hair when he's irritated or tired. It was the little things that I started to notice. I knew I was catching feelings for him but we had an agreement.  I had to try and cease these feelings.

When I woke up Antonio was still sleep. I had to use the bathroom to go check myself and change. I made my way to the bathroom and handled my business. When I was done washing my hands I open the door and Antonio was standing there stretching and rubbing his eyes.

"What's wrong?"

"I have to use the washroom." I moved out the way and headed back to the couch to lay down.

Antonio walked out the bathroom calling my name.

"I'm in here."

"We have to talk."

"Ok talk."

"It's  an event coming up and I would like for you to attend it with me."

"What event Antonio." I side eyed him.

"The Met Gala."

"What! Like the actual Met Gala!?"

"Yes. So yes or no?"

"Hell yes!"

"Ok well I'll make sure you have your dress and everything prepared."

"Wait when is it?"

"Thursday."

"Thursday!" I shouted.

"Yes Thursday Shakayla, it's in Italy."

"Oh my god i have to look for a dress like now."

"Relax I have a few places you can go to tomorrow to look for some dresses."

"Ok good."

"Want to watch another movie?"

"Let's play some games I have uno, we can play speed or bullshit."

"Bullshit it is." He said with a smile.

I got the cards and we played at least 4 rounds then we got hungry and ordered out. As we were eating our food he got a call and stepped out. I decided to go in my room and start packing for Italy. I've never been and I'm excited.

"Kayla?!"

"Yes!" He walked to the room.

"I have to go handle some business, I'll pick you up tomorrow morning so we can find your dress."

"Ok drive safe." He kissed me on the forehead before leaving out.

Fuck!