Waiting for a Miracle

23rd May 2021

My absolute dearest Little Nuggest,

You were at church again ahhhhh!!! Oh and this Sunday was even better than the last!!!!!!

Once again I was super excited, and of course had to act like I wasn't. You were even closer this week! Like last Sunday I wished I could run up to you and hug you...you turned your head sideways a couple of times, but I wished you would turn around to face my direction. By the end of the service Kyran was smacking me with a bracelet, and when it began to role across the floor towards you I could have screamed with joy.

You turned around.

Chegg came to give it back to Kyran, and I got up to put my coat on. You walked...right past me. You stood right next to me.

And then you were gone. And once again it was over too soon.

I ran through the rain filled with joy, but on the outside I looked like I wanted to be dry. I was shaking, but not because I was cold. I was so positively shaken from what happened. I was so glad it did.

I went home and ate lunch, cleaned up and made a cup of tea. Then I sat down at the kitchen table with my phone and turned it on. "Hey hows it going?" the WhatsApp popup read. The person wasn't in my contacts. I recognized the number. "ooOOOHHH IT'S BEN!!!!!!" I thought frantically. H-how the...the heck?!?!?! I thought my mum had blocked you! I went through many emotions then. Shock, extreme happiness, confusion and relief. Because I realized something. She had blocked you on my OLD phone. That one broke. She hadn't blocked you on my new phone!!

Still, I didn't feel right not telling my mum, so I took a screenshot and told her this...except I said I didn't feel anything. She said, "I'm not too sure I want you chatting again. I'm glad you told me. What are your thoughts?"

I delivered my line perfectly, weighing out the two options so I seemed like I didn't care. Pssh, yeah right. She replied saying she thinks I should let your friendship grow with Kyran and concentrate on my exams before we start talking again. Dang, so close. But she did say that one day we can talk again!! I asked if I should block you or just delete the message, once again acting like I didn't care. Oh, I very much cared.

She said just delete it. YES!! I didn't have to block you!!!

Of course, me being me, I love you so I couldn't just leave you on read. You deserved to know what the heck was going on. So I explained, trying to make it very clear that you should message me again soon and I'll try again with my mum. I also said about always being there you and I told you how incredible you are. Just cuz I can and you are.

Please do try again.

I was so happy because God is really answering my prayer. First seeing you again and now this! He really is...I really think I'll get you back. I'll get my life, my reason to live, my everything back.

I am disappointed I still have to wait who knows how long though. But I will do it for you.

To prove just how much I love you. To show you that I love you.

Yours,
Eloise xxx