Waiting for a Miracle

29th October 2021

Hellooooo everyooone!

I've been quite poorly lately :(
I have a cold and a sore throat, and I keep coughing and I can't breathe (don't worry it's not Covid, I took a test). I've had it for like a week now, but Ben's been praying for me to get better and it is. Haha he really doesn't like that I'm ill and keeps saying he wants me to give him my cold so I don't have to go through it, but I don't want him to be ill. He says when we're older I'll have to stay in bed and I'm not allowed to work or do anything and he's going to do everything for me, which I kept refusing to do since it's just a cold, but somehow we both ended up promising we will look after each other when we're ill. xD

And then I kept saying I was gonna lock him out the house cuz whenever I say I'll ticjle him, he says he'll jump out the window to escape hahaha. But yesterday he said he'll steal his keys back when I'm sleepy so I can't run properly:

Ahhh we are the weirdest couple in existence hahaha.

I love how throughout my screenshots the weather was saying "Rain to stop" and then it said "Rain coming" and then it said "Light rain" and now it's saying "Rain coming" again but outside it's blue sky. xD

Yesterday Ben and I were talking about old memories and how we weren't nearly as close as we are now. I was talking about what happened on his birthday last year cuz he couldn't remember haha.

Yeahh everyone was constantly saying we should just date already and kept asking if we liked each other since we texted literally everyday for hoursss. Life was great before I became depressed an my mum forbid us from talking. I took seeing Ben for granted. But we're even closer now and I wouldn't change a thing! Except maybe the whole forbidden thing...

But yeah everyone was so interested haha. I remember Chegg said #Besties on Ben's birthday because Kyran was like YoU tExT eVeRyDaYyY and Dan said i ThInK yOu ShOuLd Go OuT.

And one time at church Dan tried to catch Ben out by saying, "I thought you told me you liked her" while I was standing right there and Ben was like "I never said that..." and bear in mind then I was oblivious to everything and didn't know they were talking about me haha. That was when we were like...13. Gosh that was so long ago. That was when crushes were little kid things and marriage was for grown ups to worry about. I mean yeah it still is but now we're planning to marry sooo. xD

On Ben's birthday last year we played with confetti until I had to go (we are so immature together haha), and we were saying goodbye but my mum was just yelling at me to hurry up and I said "I'm just saying goodbye" and she grabbed my arm and pulled me away and it hurt. She always had a thing against me and Ben, and it was always when we said goodbye. She's gonna have to suck it up and deal with it though because one day he'll be her son-in-law. I bet Kyran will be glad he's his brother-in-law haha. But its my decision to choose who I want to be with, and if Ben was like this crazy abusive weirdo then yeah I'd be a bit more concerned if I wanted to marry him, but he's not. He's the sweetest, most caring, most gentle and loving person in the entire world and she doesn't like him one bit. But we're gonna be together no matter what and she doesn't get a say. Love is love. She can't forbid him from seeing me when we're living together. And no matter what happens now, at least I will spend the rest of eternity with him.

Signing off,
Eloise :)