My name is Eloise. What you are about to read is a diary of events in my life. A year ago I was forbidden from seeing my best friend, Ben, and I fell into depression. I decided to start writing a diary to him so he wouldn't miss out on everything I...
To those of you who are wondering how I am, I'm amazing. Happier than I've been in a very, very long time. I put a post out asking if anyone would like me to continue my diary, but addressed to you all, and my friend @Fabulous_Fork said she wanted me to, so here we go!
It's been a week since Ben and I began texting again. We're very tired (since we text 9pm-4am ish every night haha), but that's not stopping us. We are closer than before, so my mum's plan to make me forget him COMPLETELY backfired. And we're also celebrating 4 years of being best friends!
The thing is..."friend love" kind of turned into "romantic love" in the past few days...and if anything, we confessed that it was sort of always like that heheh...
You see, a few days ago Ben confessed he'd experienced love at first sight when he met me (who says it isn't real?), and had a crush on me for years. He said he'd managed to stop blushing whenever he saw me (how cute is that) but he really couldn't shake the crush. And yeah yeah...I did too...but that's not the point (so no teasing me, hmph). It was 2020 when we both first said "I love you" to each other, and as time went by...well I sort of fell in love. It was more than anything I had ever felt before. And what's more, I felt a deep connection with him, as if he were the part of me that was missing.
Turns out he felt it too.
So here we are, both hopelessly in love, neglecting sleep and growing closer as the days go by. I'd always read about soulmates and The One, and...he was here all along. God has blessed me so much with him, and we'll be together for the glory of God.
It's hard at the same time...not being able to see him, I mean. We miss each other so much. We keep talking about "when we marry we can" this and "when we move in together we can do this". (Yes we had the marriage conversation and he's already planning his proposal in how many years time - he said he's not giving any spoilers away but told me to be prepared). We've made plans to go visit his family in South Africa and my family in Australia, and to travel to Tokyo and Paris and loads of countries.
And you know what I found out? It's a miracle from God that Ben is alive. He told me the story, and I don't want to get into too much detail but his parents didn't mean to have him...their protection broke while...er...you know...and Nina got pregnant and here he is. Since I was born first, and God knew the course of my life, he made that happen so I could have my soulmate. And I actually knew Ben when we were babies, but my mum and his fell out of contact so we don't really remember.
Yesterday Ben told me that once we've settled into our new home he will give me cuddles and we can mess about (*heart squeeze*), just like we used to. Oh and by the way you CANNOT beat Ben's cuddles - they're the best.
Currently I'm trying very hard to concentrate on my studies but it'll be 3pm soon and so Ben will be home from school. And honestly he said his grades are slipping because he can't concentrate too...we're working on it. xD
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