Waiting for a Miracle

2nd June 2021

Dearest Little Nuggest,

Very sorry I haven't written to you in so long. This week has been very busy. I was disappointed that you weren't at church, but I'm just grateful I can see you at all. It's funny...everytime I go to church it's raining, but the one time you aren't there it's sunny! You really are Edward, aren't you, haha. Let me explain. So when it's sunny the Cullens go 'hiking' and 'camping' (no they don't it's just what they tell everyone) because if they go out in the sun they sparkle and their skin glitters, revealing them as vampires. So Bella only sees Edward in the rain until she finds out he's a vampire.

I went to Hermionie's yesterday, and I spent the day there. I hang out with vegans now BOOSH. I stayed out there pretty late heh...She's all the way in Bodmin, so I don't get to see her often. Oh yeah I left the group chat too. The minute I left, everyone was texting me non-stop. "Are you okay?", "I'm worried about you!", "Why'd you leave?", "We love you!". Blah. I only told Hermionie why I left, because she's my only friend. All I could think was, "Oh now they bother with me".

Today I saw Meela had texted me asking if I'd like to meet up. "Depends, what would we do?" I asked.

QUICK INTERRUPTION. My mum just walked in. That was close.

Then Meela replied, "We could just go for a walk?"

"I don't like walks."

"How about we just hang out at the park then?"

"That's kinda boring."

I'm not very polite with them, they aren't my friends. Meela didn't suggest anything after that, so I'm hoping she'll give up.

Also...did you hang out with Kyran today? You were supposed to play football golf but it was too busy so you went on a walk instead, right? I knew there was a reason behind my mum's "No" when Kyran asked if I was coming. At first I though it was something to do with my painful, aching teeth (my braces were fitted today), then I thought it was because I was doing my studies, but then they got home and Kyran was all "Ben this" and "Ben that" and I was like, hang on... they were with Ben. That's why I couldn't come. I was upset but of course, I cant show that. Luckily my mum thought I was eating in silence because of my teeth.

I think that was what compelled me to watch Twilight tonight...I had to escape reality.

I have to go to bed now though. My LED light's batteries are dead so I'm writing this on my windowsill, but the sun has set and I'm writing in moonlight. I'm writing in Twilight.

That did not need a capital letter.

I wasn't talking about the book or movie this time, right now it's literally twilight outside, so I have to go because I can't see.

Sleep well, I love you so much and I always will. Never forget. I'm always here for you. I'm right here if you need me Ben. I love you.

Yours,
Eloise xxx