daggers

daggers #21

JUSTIN'S P.O.V

"it's beautiful..." i whispered, starting at the view infront of us while i leaned my head on stell's shoulder. "thank you." i looked up at him, our faces only inches apart. stell moved closer and i closed my eyes when i felt his lips touch my forehead in the most gentle way possible. i couldn't help but smile. this feels magical...

"you're welcome." he whispered, his lips still attached onto my forehead.

silence.

we were suddenly enveloped by silence as we both are mesmerized by the view of the city below this hill. stell told me he used to go here before with his dad, but after his dad's death, he stopped visiting this place because it hurt him to remember all his memories with him. this was his first time going back to this place in six long years.

i sighed. stell deserves some explanation, even if he's not asking for anything.

"i was jealous..." i started and i felt stell lean his head on top of mine, probably signaling me that he's listening.

"i was overthinking that night when you told me na kasama mo si coach pau. i know i shouldn't have felt like that but wala eh, I couldn't help it. the next morning, i saw his tweet, then it stirred something in me kaya nilayuan kita."

stell snaked his arms around my waist, pulling me close until i was sitting infront of him. my back was leaning on his chest and his left cheek was pressed on the left side of my head while he hugs me from behind. i kept my hands on top of his which were on top of my stomach.

"alam mo, naisip ko rin nga na baka naapektuhan ka sa tweet ni pau. but i didn't want to assume anything. kasi if i assumed that you're jealous of paulo.... then that means, i'm also assuming that you like me. because you won't be jealous if you don't."

i scoffed, not because of annoyance, but rather because of amusement.

"your mind amuses me, you know that?" i said and stell chuckled. i felt the vibrations from his chest to my back, sending chills all over my body, making me feel something.

"did you really think that there's something going on between paulo and i?"

i nodded and giggled. "stupid, right?"

"okay... i'll clear something out to you, then." stell said which made me fix myself and sat properly to face him. we were both sitting in indian sit position as he held both of my hands.

"jah, for the past 3 months, i've been saying words and showing you actions that probably made you think were different, right?" i nodded.

"i've implied this a couple of times already but i guess i have to say it directly now..."

my heart suddenly started beating fast. what is he gonna say ??

"justin de dios... i like you. i like you so much."

alam ko na 'to, diba? alam ko na dapat 'to eh. but why do i feel so shocked right now? maybe because he finally said it in person? aRRRGGHH SASABOG NA 'KO SA KILIG T_______T

"aray!" i complained when he flicked my forehead and chuckled.

"nagulat ka ba masyado? 'di ka na nakapagsalita eh."

parang tanga naman T___T

"but, hey... i hope you don't feel pressured. hindi mo naman kailangan sagutin kasi i'm just-"

"I LIKE YOU TOO." i blurted out and immediately covered my mouth. WHAT THE FUCKSHFJDBCKFHDHK

i only looked at stell and shock was evident on his face as well. he started grinning widely and covered his mouth with his fist while trying to look away. HE'S SO ADORABLE.

"c-can you.... uhm... justin... can y-you..." aaaaaa he's stuttering ano ba he's super adorable T______T

i finally let go of my mouth and held his hands instead. they were so cold! ><

"can i what, stell?"

he breathed deeply before sheepishly asking, "can you say that again?"

"kainis." i whispered and he giggled.

"i said i like you too, stell. i like you sooooo much." i said, emphasizing the 'so'.

stell laughed and suddenly hugged me, pulling the both of us to fall and lie on the grass. now we look like we're cuddling. ><

"you don't know how happy you made me tonight, jah. thank you."

"thank you too. for always understanding me."

stell planted a soft kiss on my forehead once again and i hugged him by his waist, burying my face on the crook of his neck.

how i wish i wouldn't have to let you go, ever. :(