The Giant and His Light : Book 2

Part Twelve

Hearing the giant's pain over my suicide attempts killed me inside. Really. That my suicide attempts brought back the pain he felt that night his father killed his mother and sister. How could I do this to my giant? How could I hurt him like this? To this point? I was full on sobbing now. I didn't deserve him. Honestly, I think that he would be better without me in his life because I was just adding onto his pain and suffering with my baggage.
Zano: "Shit. My heart don't cry." He said holding me tightly... "this is why I didn't fucken want to talk about my feelings Doc." He said angrily.
Dr. Sherman: "But this is good Zano. Busi needed to know how you felt and you also needed to get everything out in the open because if you didn't it would just fester and in the end affect your relationship with her." The giant grunted.
Zano: "Still Doc...my woman is still fragile at the moment."
Dr. Sherman: "Yes I agree but your honesty about how you feel will also help her."
Zano: "My heart...please." His voice was shaky. Oh my gosh! My giant was begging me to stop my sobbing. I always forgot that he didn't like it when I cried. Even now, he still felt the same way, even after I did what I did and caused him pain and suffering in the process. He said he was heartbroken. I had broken his heart. My heart squeezed painfully.
Me: "I-I-I'm so sorry Zano." I sobbed clutching onto him... "I-I know I don't d-d-deserve you but please forgive me and don't leave me. I won't try to kill myself again. I-I'll be better I promise. Please Zano." I said all of that as fast as I could begging him. The giant squeezed me to him so tightly.
Zano: "What did I say earlier on to you woman? I'm not going anywhere. You just need to keep the promises that you made to me. That's all. Now stop this."
Me: "I-I hurt you...I-I made you suffer." He put his lips against my forehead.
Zano: "That you did woman." His lips moved against my forehead. I closed my eyes in pain in his admittance... "but that wasn't your fault my heart. We both have demons and we'll fight those demons together. Okay?" He sniffed... "my heart?" He called me when I didn't respond. My giant wasn't giving up on me, so I owed it to him and myself to also not give up on myself. As he had said, we'll fight our demons together. I nodded vehemently... "words woman. I want to hear you say it." I stopped my sobbing and sniffed wiping my face on his T-shirt.
Me: "Okay Zano. Together." I said softly. He gave me a squeeze.
Zano: Good." He kissed my forehead... "we won't talk about how you just wiped your snort on my favorite shirt though." He said jokingly and Dr. Sherman laughed. I had forgotten that she was still in the room with us.
Me: "I did not!" I said trying to push off him but he held me tightly.
Zano: "You sure did. Doc you saw it all right?"
Dr. Sherman: "I saw...nothing. Don't try to make me a witness." Thank you Dr. Sherman. Women needed to stick together.
Zano: "Oh wow Doc! You're doing me like this now." Dr. Sherman giggled. As much as I loved being in my man's arms and as much as I loved breathing in his smell since he smelled good and also since his smell calmed me, I was starting to suffocate a little since he was still holding me tightly in his arms.
Me: "Zano...I need to breathe."
Zano: "Oh sorry my heart." He said loosening his arms around me. I sat up catching up my breath. I was breathing shakily. The giant took my hand into his big one and gave it a squeeze. I smiled slightly at him.
Me: "I love you." I told him softly. His eyes melted and he gifted me with one of his rare smiles.
Zano: "Owning my woman's heart will always be one of my greatest honors and achievements." He told me gruffly. This man!
Dr. Sherman: "Well. I think my job here today is done." She said standing up... "I will see you two lovely birds next week."
Zano: "Aww Doc you're leaving us already."
Dr. Sherman: "Don't pretend you're not happy about that." The giant chuckled.
Zano: "Oh come on. It's sad to see you leave." Dr. Sherman guffawed and rolled her eyes.
Dr. Sherman: "Busi come dear, let me give you a hug before I leave." She said opening her arms to me. I stood and went into her welcoming arms. Her hug was motherly and so warm that it brought fresh tears into my eyes... "if you need anything, you can call me anytime okay?" I nodded sniffing... "you'll be fine my dear. You have a man who would slain dragons and even go through fire for you." She said lightly and I smiled... "and you also have me. I don't want to blow my own horn but I'm best in the game." I giggled.
Zano: "Woah Doc! Arrogant much?"
Dr. Sherman: "Oh you know it's the truth." She patted my back and let me go... "see you sweerie."
Me: "Thank you Dr. Sherman." She gave me a wink.
Zano: "See you Doc."
Dr. Sherman: "Take care of our girl." She said to Zano.
Zano: "You know it." She brushed his arm and left. I have to say people that I loved to see that playful side of the giant when he was in the presence of Dr. Sherman. He always joked and teased her.