The Giant and His Light : Book 2

Part Forty Five

2 days passed...

Today was the day that we could finally take Uyiphendule home. These past 2days we've stayed at the hospital because the doctors still wanted to observe Uyi now that he was out of the incubator. We still needed to come back after a week so that they could run their checks on him, but they told us that he was fine. That his lungs had finally developed nicely. The giant and I were still a little worried. I mean, we wanted our son to be fully healthy people. During these past 2 days, the nurses had guided me on breastfeeding. I don't want to lie, it had been a struggle and painful one, and still was but now not as before. Even though it had been a struggle and painful, since Uyi couldn't really seem to latch on his mouth on my nipples, once he did, it was the most beautiful thing I've ever seen. How his small mouth would suckle on my breast and the sounds that came with it, were out of this world. Even the giant had been transfixed and in awe. It was his new favorite thing now. The giant people was obsessed with everything that had to do with his son. Which, I didn't blame him, because I was the also same. Everything about Uyi fascinated me people. I don't know why every time when the giant held our son in his arms, I got so emotional. Maybe it was because I could see the love and devotion in how the giant looked and held him. It was really a sight to see. The men and both our mothers had been here yesterday, and the giant hadn't wanted any of them holding Uyi. He kind of conceded a little when it came to our mothers even though he didn't let them hold him for very long and crowded them whilst they did which annoyed the hell out of my mother, he refused to let any of his friends hold Uyi. He was so possessive and territorial people! You could now say that my emotions were back, and I was feeling a lot people. And I mean, a lot. Mostly I was just angry with what had happened. I nearly died and I nearly lost my son because of that. And it was all because of that bitch and those fucken Russians. I really wanted to settle the score with the whole lot of them, especially with Nandipha. I wanted her to suffer like I suffered. I know it wasn't a good thing to want since you shouldn't return 'evil with evil' and everything, as stated in the Bible but I just couldn't guys. I wanted revenge. Badly. I don't know if I was really going to be able to do what I wanted to do to Nandipha when the giant finally took me to her, whatever that was, but I was really out for blood. I was going to let the giant deal with those Russians. The more I thought about the whole thing that happened, the more I got angry. How they chained me and stripped me naked. You guys don't know how many times what had happened haunted me in my dreams. I wanted to rip her apart and feed her to the dogs. I mean, that woman wanted to kill me and my baby for something that I wasn't even at fault for. I never forced the giant to be with me. He's the one that decided that I was the one for him. He came to me people, so what I didn't get was, why then should I be the one to suffer for that? I mean, I really didn't. It all comes down to that these women don't want to accept and deal with rejection. They don't want to accept the fact that the giant didn't and would never want them in this lifetime and even in the next. It was crazy really. When you're not desired people, accept it and move on. Tshini! I was fed up to my neck with these crazy bitches people! This had been the last straw shame. Moving forward, I told myself that I wasn't going to be taking anymore bullshit. No. No more. Enough was enough guys. I was going to make sure that I got more a whole lot stronger so that I could kill all those who wanted to hurt my family. God had to forgive me people. This life that I had chosen to be in with the giant, was forcing my hand to become what I didn't want to be. Just hoped that when the time came, the heavens would open its' gates and accept me in. I'm laughing now guys as I'm saying all this to you because I never would've imagined that my life would turn out like this, that I would be this kind of person who would have to accept that killing was going to be part of her life for as long as she lived. Because of the giant's profession, my innocence and naivety had been stripped off. Literally. To be honest, I wasn't fine with it, and I wished that the giant would quit his job and find another profession but I knew that it wasn't going to be a possibility any time soon. I mean, even if the giant did quit his job, he would always have enemies and they would always follow him everywhere. So basically, nothing would change. I told myself that I was only going to hurt those who wanted to hurt me and my family.