The Queen & I (WLW)

Chapter 30 : To Lobby a Fool

I was twelve when I went to Kata Noi beach with my mother and brother for a weekend trip. It was a Friday, and like any typical good day, the sun was out, the water was clear, the swell was moderate and the beach wasn't really crowded. Everything was going perfectly—or at least I thought it was.

I hit the waters with my old pink board and for a few minutes, I rode the small waves with ease. Then the wind shifted from west to south-east. The moderate swell became erratic causing me to fall off the board. I struggled to untangle myself from my safety leash - I was underwater and holding my breath for what seemed like a minute, trying to swim up, but I couldn't. I was trapped in a cross sea.

I still remember the feeling, my panic. I was out of control. My eyes burned from the ocean water that I had to shut it- concealing me in darkness and uncertainty. I was too afraid to breathe. I was so terrified of the outcome if I'd even survive.

When I saw Joe, I felt like I was in the middle of a cross swell once again. The feeling of panic from that terrible experience came back, but everything went suffocating when I sensed Rabiya's hand slip off mine - I felt my spirits get sucked that I hoped for someone to pull me out of this misery and save me right this moment.

"You see Paula, Amanda's been doing amazing work and partnering with a lot of outreach organizations in Thailand despite the pandemic situation. She's been the champion for mental heath awareness and now you can finally see the reason why she's liked and well loved by many". Pui candidly lobbied - always trying to pull off some strings.

Joseph was standing beside me, an arm wrapped around my back like a prized possession. "My girlfriend has a very genuine heart and I can attest that she's one of the most generous, if not the most beautiful and loving person you will meet".

Girlfriend.

It took an insane amount of courage for me to look into the eyes of the woman standing beside me. The same eyes that were beaming with hope and warmth a few minutes ago now reflected pain, regret and disbelief.

My chest is crushed and heavy, like being induced with liquid — I wanted to scream, but an invisible force was tying me to remain still - I was terrified, helpless——I was drowning.

"You've been really sending great and influential delegates year after year, Pui. I see this one is no exception. A pleasure to finally meet you one on one, Miss Obdam. I've been hearing nothing but praises from Pui and Mr. Kheng right here", Ms. Shugart offered a hand - I stared blankly at the veiny hand with a big emerald ring in front of me for a second, but remembered Veena's words about acting like a queen if I wanted the job.

"The pleasure is all mine, Ms. Shugart. I am so honored to become a part of the Miss Universe legacy together with all these wonderful ladies representing their countries." I shook the MUO President's hand with a firm grip.

"Ah, Miss Philippines. I am glad to see you too! Where are Jonas and Shamcey? Isn't it nice to see Thailand and Philippines beside each other? This is how it should be. No pageant wars, just love and support". Ms. Shugart looked quite pleased but was unaware of Pui's irritation.

Rabiya was startled when Paula noticed her from the corners of her eye. I wasn't surprised, because she always had this effect on people. With that pure beauty, she'll always be seen even when she's trying to hide.

Now all our eyes were on her.

"Ms. Shugart!". Rabiya was trying her very best to smile, but I could see the anxiety that's creeping in — taking over the light in her eyes. It was shattering to witness.

"I haven't seen sir Jonas yet, but Ms. Shamcey is with some Filipino guests", she attempted to smile genuinely at all of us.

"Oh, good! I need to have a word with her in a while. Anyway, Ms. Obdam, I expect to see you tomorrow. Good luck! You too, Miss Philippines!"