"You won't choke me when you come out, right?" She smiles, what a tease.
"Stop it," I warn her. "That's a bad habit I can't seem to get rid of, and your neck looks pretty with my hand around it anyways," I smirk and she rolls her eyes.
"It's okay, I...
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❀ Montana Lowren ❀
My entire night went by just watching inappropriate videos online and movies with...um, sex scenes. And why did I do that you might question yourself, I don't know how to make a guy feel good and I've never thought about even learning it thoroughly besides the school lessons but you know there's always more to it.
I learned that the hard way.
Landon said I couldn't please him and I was scared which is sort of valid but I wanted him to let me see last night so if I touched him he'd touch me in return because I really desired something last night and I wasn't sure what precisely that was.
I had to learn when I came home, I brought out my phone and did research and I was very confused and frightened at the things I saw but the way they were moaning and groaning it sounded like they were having fun and they enjoyed it.
I watched a video to learn how to touch myself too and I was hesitant in the beginning but then I started liking it a little too much. I'm dumb because I spent my whole night exploring my body and it might sound weird and desperate but I feel like I want to touch myself almost all the time and that's why I couldn't sleep all night because as I finished once and I thought I was done and content, the need to touch myself came again and I had to do it again.
I wasn't mad about that I was just mad I was thinking of Landon every single time I did that and it made me feel so good each and every time.
I wanted to learn because If I got in another situation like last night at least I would know how to 'do something about it' as Landon said. I was embarrassed when he said I was innocent and didn't know what to do so I took it as a challenge to learn and teach him that I'm not scared to do things.
The door of my room swung open and my mom walked in, she leaned against the door frame and took puffs of her cigarette. So that's what the smell was, I thought our house was on fire for a second.
"Morning darling," I snap my laptop shut and put it to the side.
Please don't check my phone, please don't check my phone. I chant in my head as I watch her.
"Morning Mom."
"What are you doing?" She asks and I take a deep breath, thinking of a lie.
"Nothing, just finishing up homework." That's what I'm doing all the time anyway.
"Okay...I'm here to talk to you about that boy you've been hanging out with." She starts and I gulp, where did she learn this? She barely cares about anything I do why is she in my business now?
