At first glance

3/I need her

⋆Landon Kate ⋆

"Stop fucking touching me!" I yank Katy's hand away from my chest, trying to smoke in peace, and text my sister for advice about what the fuck to do when your best friend flirts with the girl I like right in front of my fucking eyes!

"I'm sorry, I've just missed you, Landon. You're not the same anymore." She says standing in front of me like a desperate whore, I hate her guts but just so I could see if Montana reacted to me letting Katy touch me and I kind of saw a twitch but it wasn't very visible.

I don't know how to do this, she doesn't like me how the fuck is a guy supposed to treat a girl so she can like him? I haven't been taught, I haven't been guided through these things. It's hard for me to start figuring it out.

It's not an excuse to push somebody around when you're having family problems but I can't help it, she asks for it.
Why is she so nice to everyone when half of the school hates her for no reason?

She's pretty and adorable and has these pretty sky-blue eyes and dresses so nicely.
She's the sunlight amongst the dull moon. In this case, the moon is the entirety of the girls that are going through their emo phase which scares the shit out of me.

They look like death compared to this girl. She wears so much pink and smells pink and does everything pink...I call her pink and so do many others because she's obsessed with the color pink.

I hate that color...I'm not emo I just don't like pink because it's obnoxious.
She's not like everyone else in this school, she's unique and even if no one here likes her she's still herself.

I hate her, but I also want her so badly.
But I bully her because she's annoying and loves to flirt with Lewis, why can't she ever stop it and notice me?

"Landon?" Katy touches me again and I have to back off before I slap her. How many times do I have to ask her to leave me the fuck alone, she's always on my back for fucks sake.
Just because we used to fuck before doesn't mean I'm going to go back to that time again.

I grab her jaw and push her against the wall.
"I said do not fucking touch me again, did you not hear me?" I give her a warning look, and her eyes grew wide and they filled up with tears, her hands gripped my wrist so I let her go and made my way back inside as the bell would be ringing any minute and I wouldn't want to miss seeing her face one last time before I was locked in a classroom with a bunch of assholes I don't wanna be next to.

I spot her immediately, walking towards me with her bag on her shoulder and her pretty little dress flowing around as she swayed her hips.

Fuck! What I would do to see it shredded on the floor, tie her up and make her beg me to touch her.

I smirk making eye contact with her and I immediately see her get behind Lewis like he's going to save her from me, just wait until I do something about his ass and she wouldn't be able to escape me.

I grin before grabbing her arm and slamming her against the locker doors, getting a loud noise from the metal.

"Hey baby doll, thought you could escape from me this time?" I place my hand on the locker right next to her head and I keep my other to push her against the locker so she wouldn't run.

"Lake stop it-" I turn around and glare at Lewis who's right behind me with his hand on my shoulder.
I turn my glare at his hand and he knows better than to test me so he takes it off and gives the girl an apologetic look before leaving.

I turn my attention back to her and smirk.

"Now it's just me and you Pink."

"What now?" She rests against the locker, used to my behavior towards her. It infuriates me to see her act so careless because she thinks I won't hurt her but I fucking will.

I bring my hand up and wrap it around her tiny little throat and squeeze ever so slightly.

"You think you're being funny? I haven't started being nice to you Pink, don't think I won't bash your head against these lockers right here." She winces, grabbing my arm to pry my hand away from her throat but she's too weak for that.

"I'm sorry." She whispers, her eyes filling up with tears.

I smile but my heart is cursing me out, I don't like hurting her but it feels good to let my anger out on her.

My dad always hits my mom and she loves him because she's nothing without him, he used to beat me when I was younger up until I turned 16 and started building muscles and then I started defending myself because no one was there to help me.

My mother was scared if she tried to protect me she'd get it worse so she never tried stopping him and I don't blame her, she is pretty fucking stupid for living with him still and wanting to "grow old with him" I fucking hate that sentence.

My older sister Tara moved out a year ago and she always contacts me...or more like I never stop calling her to ask for advice because I'm a shit person I do admit and I hate my psychotic personality but this is me and I don't know how to change it.

I thought maybe spending time with Montana would help me become a better person and that was my sister's suggestion as well since she kind of has a similar vibe as Montana but I don't know about that.

That's why I gave her a ride to school today, but I don't think anything changed.

I either have to keep giving her rides until something happens or stop it while it's still soon.

I don't want to see her close to Lewis, I don't want her to talk to him or even look at him.
I want her to look at me only and tell me that she's going to help me become a better person.

I need her.

"Landon!" She gasps and I let go, her hands grabbing her own throat as she takes fast breaths.
I watch her with worry, my heart beating so fast like it's yelling at me for being so stupid.

Tears staining her cheeks and she coughs desperately trying to get in as much air as possible.

I swallow dryly and back away, I need to stop this. If I lose control one day I will kill her, I can't afford to kill her.

I need her.
I fucking need her or I will kill myself after I do her because how am I ever going to live without her.

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Damnnn Landon a psycho y'all wtf.

I think I have what I need for this story and I hope y'all won't hate me because I made him a bully but it will become better soon I hope. sorry if there are any misspelled words I didn't go through it.

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