"You won't choke me when you come out, right?" She smiles, what a tease.
"Stop it," I warn her. "That's a bad habit I can't seem to get rid of, and your neck looks pretty with my hand around it anyways," I smirk and she rolls her eyes.
"It's okay, I...
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❀ Montana Lowren ❀
"Last night he was in a huge street fight with this one guy who he used to fight with when he was young, and he had a bad concussion which made him lose a part of his memory and now he barely remembers anything recent, but the doctor said that he'll get it back eventually if we all keep reminding him of bits and pieces of what happened the past month or two." Lucy, Landon's sister explained everything, she was crying and so was I.
Landon was up in a spare room, he was mad I was there and he asked both his sister and her boyfriend to not let me in the house but they yelled at him to stop it and he did, going up to lock himself inside a room.
I was sobbing, he didn't remember anything we did, not even the part where he was in a jail cell for one whole month and I was the only one to visit him and check up on him.
He now remembered me as the annoying girl who wore pink and the one he bullies and pushes around which really broke my heart because I didn't want him to push me around again.
This fight really brought him back to square one with me and I don't know what I'm going to do to bring him back to how he was again. How he took care of me and how he kissed me, how he made love to me, and the words he spoke to me in a hushed tone so I would calm down in his arms.
He didn't want to see me with his sister and kept asking me to leave them alone.
My heart broke into a million pieces.
"He will get better I promise, if we all try to get his memory back it will be all fine." She grabs my hands in hers and squeezes them, but I don't feel even a bit of reassurance from that and her words.
It feels like the end and I won't be able to help him this time unless he takes therapy again.
"Can I try and see him one more time maybe?" I ask and she nods telling me the way to the room he was in.
I knock and thrice and wait to hear a 'go away' from behind it, I didn't want to give up so I tried again.
The door swung open, my hair flew behind my back from the way he opened the door causing my breath to knock out of me.
My red eyes travel up to his face that's glaring at me like I'm the most disgusting thing he's ever seen. My stomach did weird flips and I gulped, my eyes burned from how much I've cried just today and I can barely see him from the blur of the tears.
"Landon," I said his name but that was all I could get out, hiccuping I looked down at my hands that were fidgeting so hard, I knew he wouldn't want to talk to me so why did I come up here for him.
My head was lifted by his hand placed under my chin and we made eye contact, his expression seemed blank and that bothered me. His eyes didn't show any spark in them like they would when I would visit him in prison.
"Please talk to me," I pleaded in an embarrassing voice that came out shaky.
"About what?" He says, his voice calm which made me feel concerned because it could be only a trick to get me to talk to him and then he'd shout and yell at me. But I didn't care, he gave me the chance to talk and I'm going to talk.
"Me and you," hiccup after hiccup come out of me as I feel his hand gently touch my face and brush my hair back.
"There's no me and you little pink, just get out of this house and leave me alone." His calm voice scared me but I didn't want to pull back because I needed him, I need his comfort in me.
"Please Landon, I need you." I place my hand on top of his forearm but he slides it off my face, leaving my skin bare against the air. "Why do you hate me?" I blurt out and watch him with pleading eyes. "After everything we did, you're going to throw me away?"
"We did nothing, Montana, stop lying and leave, Now!" He pushes my shoulder and I stumble back almost falling on the floor. "Take a fucking hint and go away, I don't like you goddamnit!" He shouts before slamming the door shut and clicking the lock.
That's it.
I turn around without thinking and walk down the stairs with my face drenched in tears, it's probably red too but I don't stick around to show anyone else my embarrassing face as I open the front door and exit the house, Koda was waiting for me outside in his car as it didn't take me much time in there before I burst out and left.
I am never coming back here again if he's going to treat me like I'm trash. I open the door and get in the car before sobbing my head off, I sound like a child but in front of Koda I've gotten used to being weird and I really didn't mind breaking down in front of him.
I brought my hands up to my face to cover it and wipe my eyes before he offered me a paper towel.
My heart was hurting and my chest was tightening up, I've cried way too much for him that you'd think I'm crazy but I actually love that dumbass and I can't seem to find the strength to stop.
I've gotten so used to being around him every day. I thought he was the only one left in my life that wouldn't trick me or leave me for some dumb reason but I know now to never assume because never is not never.
The most loved and closest person to you can break your heart no matter what, no matter how much you show them you love them. I could go back and force him to let me talk to him but that would be useless unless he goes to prison again and we start back from the beginning.
That would drain me even more than this has and I have to start working on myself because of I don't I'll be in the hospital next to my mom wired to those machines that scare me every time I see them.
I don't want to end up like that, I want to live, I want to have a happy life, even if that means without Landon.
