Skyfall (An Joonas Porko Love Story)

(23) Heartbreak & Senace

Miranda

"What the fuck?" We heard Tommi say, I gasped.

"What's wrong Tommi?" I asked him, he sighs.

"Why didn't I get the nurses number from the hospital?" The brown haired drummer whined.

"Don't worry nurse Lali maybe you'll find her again." I said hugging the tall drummer. Niko looked like he was caught in the middle of headlight lost like a deer. It was kind of cute to see hi so lost.

"Fuck man! You scared the crap out of us!" Niko says, while the three of us laughed our asses.  Joonas was walking toward us.

"Joonas?" I said, I glanced over at Niko. He wouldn't look at us.

"Can we talk in private? I have something I want to show it's  in the car." Joonas says. I excused myself from Niko and Tommi while following him.

"What is it?" I asked Joonas, he brought me a teddy bear that I''m sorry' and my favourite black tulips.

"I know I haven't really cared about you. Look Miranda I didn't mean to hurt your feelings." Joonas says with a sigh.

"Oh my goodness you remembered the I loved black tulips!" I said to Joonas with a smile. He also got out a limited edition of the leather bound Black Tulip by Alexandre Dumas.

"Oh my goodness Joonas this is so nice of you." I said giving him a hug. These damn emotions making me cry. I hugged Joonas. He felt like home, I inhale his scent hoping to remember it forever. A part of me yearned for him, then there was Niko. Oh sweet Niko, he always made me laugh and smile.

But I couldn't put a rift between these boys, they were best friends. I had to make sure I made the right choice. Yes, I know Joonas was relentless when he did that. But maybe that was the only thing he knew best was to push away.

I loved Joonas for two years, all the trails and things went through. How do you abandon that? Then Niko, he was truly a gentleman. The says he yelled at me earlier that he was concerned about was kind of cute.

But was he genuine about those feelings? It could be jealousy? It could be a lot of things. I had to make a good call and calculation. Or the third option was run away and refuse both of them.

I sighed, running my hand through my hair. The third option sounded more easier because no one would be heartbroken. Also my mission now was to find nurse Rachel for nurse Lali.

Joonas said he would drop the stuff off later. Tommi had to head out and take care of some stuff. Which left Niko and I alone.

"See you later Niko." I said, I was about to walk away. Until Niko gripped my wrist and pulled me toward him.

"Niko we're both confused about our feelings." I whisper to the vocalist while I stood up on my toes.

"What if I'm not confused and this is what I want." Niko says, looking my green eyes.

"Niko although Joonas hurt me. I don't want to use for you for revenge Okay. It's not fair on you. Please allow me sometime to analyse this." I said to the brown haired vocalist.

"Why?" Niko asks.

"Because Niko once those feelings happen, our friendship can never be restored. I'm scared of losing you." I whisper to Niko, feeling a tear stream down my face.

"You'll never lose me Mira." Niko says wiping away my tears.

"Yes well you say that now, then it's different once it happens." I said to him.

"Well take your time. Goodnight princess." Niko says and places a kiss on my forehead while enveloping me in a warm hug and heading home. I sighed.

(Three Days Later)

The preparations of the Gala was underway, rehearsals were going to plan. Pisces was going to blow the roof of the house for sure.

"Wow that's amazing Miranda. Are you ready for Friday night?" Suzette asks me.

"Yes I sure am." I said with a smile. The boys would be here supporting me. Hopefully Joonas would come too, it would mean a lot to me. But it's his choice.

I decided to take a bath because it was a long day, I sat in there with my legs pulled up to my chest thinking about the day I had. Some relaxing and soothing music played in the background. Decisions to make, who should your soulmate be? I was throng my best to keep a clear mind.

I finished and went to take a shower and washed my hair out. I wrapped my burgundy bathrobe around me. I decided to dig through my closet to look for a dress to wear for the Gala and I found which represented my hair.

"This is it." I whisper to the dress. I laid on my bed thinking. What if it was Joonas instead of Tommi seeing us today? What would his reaction have been like?

"Oh God Miranda don't come in between those two! Because the band would break apart and it would be my fault." I say to myself. But it was much easier said then done.

If Tommi hadn't stopped us, would Niko have kissed me? I'm sure he would have, there was an intense emotion in his eyes. Something he held there but couldn't place it.

I remembered when I hung out at his place when we watched Titanic, he would always over at me. Holding my hand when the intense moment came. J sighed, I couldn't break their hearts or they would hate me forever. What should I do run or tell the truth? Cry to the feelings I felt or numb them?

"Oh God what should I do?" I asked myself lowly. These choices were tough and taxing. I had a crazy couple of days, almost dying of dehydration and emotions. I rolled over and got some sleep.

Maybe tomorrow would bring some answers. My only request to both men was.

Don't worship me!

A/N: So... Miranda must make an important choice. Does she want to be with Joonas or Niko? The Gala chapter will be coming up soon. Should Mira leave or stay and face the men? Or will it all crumble? - MyVictim

Song credit: Heartbreak & Senace by Cradle of Filth