We Deserved Better ⤿ Stucky x Reader

two ⤿ the last few days

Ever since the letter came, things have been tense. You were schedule to ship out in a few days, off to who knows where. You had no medical training, supposedly more nurses were needed to aid the soldiers and they started needing to pull in more women. And that is were you came in, granted you had no medical training or history in this kinda thing, but you fit perfectly in. A day or so after you got the letter they sent you a nursing handbook to read up on. It taught you the basics of being an army nurse and the things you might see. You didn't want to do this, but you had no choice. This was something you had to do. Your small bag was packed, you didn't own much and they would supply some basic things.

The sound of your bag zipping was the only sound in the room, standing over the bag as you push your hair out of your face. A knock soon is heard from the bedroom entrance, turning to see Bucky with a small, sad, smile. "Hey Doll." he says, stepping into the room and sitting onto the bed next to your bag. The room soon fell silent for a few moments before he spoke once more. You nervously toy with your bottom lip, keeping your gaze on your bag. "I can't believe we both have to leave Steve here alone."

You finally broke the silence, biting back tears. Bucky and Steve decided to go the US Recruiting Centre once America joined the war back in 41', Bucky had been accepted, he had been trained and was now the rank of a Sargent. He had left you two a few times for training and other little things. But you were always at home with Steve. And now he would be alone.

Buck was leaving once again to go to England tomorrow and you leaving to a place you can't even remember right now. And Steve, sweet Steve. He had been denied every time he tried to enlist, he just had too many medical conditions and they didn't think he would be of any use. They always stated they were 'Doing him a favor' by denying him. But he never saw it that way.

Steve only wanted to help, he always said how much he didn't like bullies. And then knowing his boyfriend is leaving and now his girlfriend, he is a wreck, but he doesn't show it. You can tell just how heart broken he is, and so are you. If you could you would stay back, stay to be with him.

You only wish you three could just not have to be included in this war in any way, it was a selfish thing to say, but it truly is what you wanted. And they both wanted that too. You know sometimes James regrets listing himself, but if he didn't list himself he probably would've been called to war anyway. He was healthy and strong, he was everything you needed to be to be a soldier.

Bucky lets out a sad sigh, pulling you to his lap and letting you curl up onto him as you held back the tears. "I know doll, I don't want this either." He whispers into your hair, rocking you ever so slightly. Pulling away you look him in the eyes, resting your hands on his shoulders. "You have to come out of this alive, you can't do anything stupid- you hear me?" You said sternly, brows dropping in as you tried to look as serious as you could. Bucky thought it was rather cute and couldn't help but smile, which only made you ever so slightly more upset. "James this is serious." you said with a whisper.

Bucky kisses your cheek, "I know honey, I will be fine." Bucky didn't want to voice his worries to you, he was worried enough. What if something happens and you end up getting hurt? What if- God forbid something goes wrong? "But right now we can't sit and mope and be sad." His left hand starts to run up and down your back. "We only have a short amount of time before you and me both leave, and we need to focus on one another." His voice was low as he heard Steve walk into the bed room, causing you to turn to the smaller male with a smile, grabbing his hand and pulling him closer to you both. "You two smooching without me?" Steve asked, a faint blush dusting his cheeks and the top of his ears.

With a giggle you pull him to sit on the bed next to bucky, leaning and kissing the blonde softly. "Never." You whisper after you pull away.

Bucky throws his free arm over Steve's shoulders, pulling him close to you both. He leaned into the darker haired male, resting his head on his shoulder. "We need to get going soon." Steve broke the silence after a few moments. Tonight was the stark expo and you three decided to go. But to make this not seem weird to others, you were going as Steve's date and Bucky invited a pretty girl named Connie to go as his. "Before that, did you tell her about where I found you?" You furrowed your brows at Bucky's words, looking towards Steve who now wore a sheepish smile. "You know how I went to the cinema today, this one guy kept yelling in the theatre.. So I told him off and well-" "I found steve trying to beat up this guy, using a trash can lid as a shield and stating that he 'could do this all day'" With a soft gasp you shake your head.

"Steve! What are we gonna do with you? Yo-" Before you could finish Steve interrupted you. "Nothing, you are gonna do nothing because you both are leaving." His words cut a dagger through your heart and Bucky's, silence enveloping the room. You casted your eyes down to your hands.

"That's why we are making the most of tonight, we are going to go to the stark expo and see the future!" Bucky said cheerfully, well, as cheerfully as he could. You could tell he was heartbroken, just trying to defuse the tension.

You nodded before hopping off of Bucky, brushing down your dress. "I am going to freshen up and then I will be ready." With a smile James kissed the side of Steve's head, "I will meet you both there, told Connie I would walk her." With that he stood up, kissing your forehead before heading out, grabbing his hat and darting off.

You turn back to Steve who was still sat on the queen sized bed the three of you shared, a solemn look on his features. With a sad sigh you moved and sat down next to him, gently taking his hand into yours. "I'm not happy with this either, and I wish I could change this." Your words were gentle as you looked at him, his gaze was stuck on your interlocked hands. "I know this isn't what we had planned, but it will work out in the end." Slowly your thumb starts to rub the back of his hand. "I will write to you as much as I can and so will Bucky, we will visit as much as we can." Steve's blue eyes soon turn to look at you, resting his forehead against yours. "I love you." His words brought joy to you, smiling ever so slightly. "I love you too, now- lets go on a double date with our boyfriend." Jumping up as you pulled him with you, laughter filling the once quiet and sad room.