A Four-Letter-Word Called LOVE (COMPLETE - ENG Translation On-Going)

Act Fifty

Chris:

                My eye widens in utter surprise from Uncle George's words, leaving me absolutely stupefy and couldn't mutter any engaging words to return those kind words he muttered. Uncle gently puts his hand over my shoulder, still maintaining his gaze on me.

                                "I was so and beyond chuffed when Judith gave birth to you. She was absolutely upset and totally depressed when your biological father abandoned her with you. She even decided on not to continue conceiving you coz she was so devastated and brokenhearted on that time. But Jeanette insisted her, especially me. We both insisted that she should continue to conceive you, that there's no reason why she should get rid of you just because of--- I'm sorry with my words Chris but, just because of a f****r imbecile man who destroyed all your Mum's hopes and dreams of having a family."

                My eyes still gazes at him, could feel that he's now back to his old self again. He retrieves his gaze and hand on me, stooping his face down while leaning his back against the wall.

                                "I've dreamed of having a son, my own son. But your Auntie couldn't conceive anymore that's why having you as my 'son' absolutely completes my dream. I've treated you just like my own, Chris. I've loved you even though I'm not your biological father. I couldn't describe the happiness you've given me every time you called me "Daddy", that heeding you calling and treating me like I'm your real Dad utterly washes all the grief and frustration of loosing my only dream. You know, I've always wanted you and Mhari to grow up just like true siblings..."

                He heaves a deep sigh once again, suppressing the trembling of his voice. I could feel that Uncle is trying to hide his true emotions from me, just like he always do way back before. He continue afterwards.

                                "I've always love to see the both of you growing up looking after each other, Mhari as your big sister and you as her wee brother. I've so many hopes and dreams for both of you but, it all crashes down once again when I found out that you two are in a relationship - that you both fell in love with each other against my will."

                The pins and needles of guilt suddenly pricks my heart, continously pricking it feeling the absolute grief from Uncle's words. I've never thought he was hoping that Ate Mhari and I could grow up just like a true siblings who could look after each other. I feel like it's not just my Mum whom I've let down...

                ...that I've also let down my only "Dad" I have from falling in love with my "Ate".

                                "Uncle, I'm--- I-I'm so, so sorry..." Words have finally came out of my mouth while my tears are now constantly falling down from my eyes, leaving me totally and utterly unguarded.

                He returns his gaze on me, but this time, he's now in tears; gradually grabbing my hand with both his hands and holds it. He let out a huge sigh, suppressing the tears which keeps on streaming down from his somber yet hopeful eyes.

                                "There's only one thing I'm dying to ask you now that you both love each other, Christopher. How much do you love my daughter?"

                I heave a huge yet, deep sigh, suppressing the apprehensions and grief which still swarms and devours my whole being. Just as what I first thought when Auntie Jeanette asked me this huge question before, I could feel the biggest pressure and the utmost fear while heeding the said question straight from my "Dad" himself. I gradually shed my tears, putting a brave yet, reassuring look on my face.