Chris:
"I-I need to find her."
"But Chris, you're wet and cold. You should go back to the hotel and get changed."
"Bella's right, dude." Chaz joins the conversation. "We need to go back and get you changed."
"I NEED TO FIND HER, OKAY?!" My voice howls hysterically. "I DON'T NEED TO GET CHANGE AT ALL!"
I profusely saunter away from Bella and Chaz. They keep on telling me that I should go back and get change first before I find her. But my ears have gone deaf from their words and plead. My feet keep on sauntering away from them instead. Before I even go further, Bella walks faster ahead of me and stands in my way.
"Chris, please listen to us. You're going to get ill from what you're doing right now."
I just look at her for a brief while and continue on sauntering afterwards. She walks once again but she pulls my arm this time while pauses and stands in front of me.
"Why are you being so stubborn, Chris?! Why do you always have to think about Ate Mhairi before anyone else, huh? CAN YOU NOT THINK ABOUT YOURSELF FIRST AND NOT HER?!"
"IT'S BECAUSE I LOVE HER, BELLA! I need to find her because I love her!"
"You love her even though she hurt you a lot, Chris?! You still love her no matter how much she hurt you and caused you so much grief, huh?!"
"I've no time for this, Bella. I need to find her."
Bella grips my arm firmly and pulls me in front of her.
"HOW LONG ARE YOU GONNA HURT YOURSELF LIKE THIS, CHRISTOPHER?! HOW LONG ARE YOU GOING TO MAKE YOURSELF STUPID JUST BECAUSE OF YOUR LOVE FOR HER, HUH? FOR HOW LONG CHRIS?! HOW LONG?!"
"AS LONG AS I CAN BEAR THE PAIN, BELLA!" I furiously scowl at her. "As long as my heart still screams for her and only her, I will! As long as this stupid heart beats for her and only her, okay?! CAN YOU NOT UNDERSTAND ME?!"
Bella gazes at me in utter daze while Chaz looks at me in total bewilderment. I didn't realize that I've been scowling and shouting at them because of worrying too much from Ate Mhairi's sudden disappearance. I heave a deep sigh to suppress the agitation I'm feeling and stoop my face down.
"As--- As long as I can tolerate it, Bella. As long as I can bear the pain here..." I thump my chest with my fist twice pertaining to my heart. "...I will."
Tears start to well up from my eyes from the heavy burden of my broken heart
"I'm gonna do everything, even giving her my life, just to make sure she's safe and okay. As long as I can endure the pain and misery of loving her, I will. That's--- T-That's how much I love her, Bella."
"Chris..." Bella uttered; her tear falls down from her sombre gaze.
I couldn't deter my tears to fall again from the words I've said. I still couldn't help myself from being a tear jerky every time I utter how much I love her; every time I mutter that I will do everything for her no matter how many times she broke my heart. I shed my tears with the back of my hand and hold my breath.
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A Four-Letter-Word Called LOVE (COMPLETE - ENG Translation On-Going)
RomanceIt's been three years; Three years since I've decided to gaze at the stars every night to ease the sadness and emptiness I'm feeling without her- -without the woman that I love and still loving with all my heart. I didn't realise that an amiable, el...
