"(Y/N), this will be our story. Remember, pray for me and I can send a message for you. Promise me, I will always be with you forever until the end of time. Our love is strong like arrows to my heart. But you are all alone and I know why you cannot...
Does love will ever find me a meaning? I am not sure of that, I'm afraid. I never had an experience with someone who I liked in my life. But no, I am not ready yet. Maybe it's because of my existence that I'm feeling depressed about. And how should I know? Well...nothing.
Where's the love? Seriously, where can I find it? Others think I'm crazy, but it is impossible if I don't try. An unrequited lover who's desperate for a 'Mr. Right' I have never met in my life. I know...well, it's been for a while. It bothers me a lot. I don't think he really likes me.
If true love doesn't exist the way I am here right now....how am I supposed to do that anyway? Then where would I be? Never had one, never will. It's not even my opinion after all. I just felt my whole world is turning gloomy and so gloomy, if were dark clouds out there.
A life without true love may be terrible and too difficult, it will be nothing but me. The worst problem is I don't know why it's still already there; or probably my affection for someone else has gone missing. I just can't seem to find it...but no use and neither did I.
To be honest, I didn't know what to say except for me. So I ask myself, 'why do we call this love?' or 'why true love is just very hard to find?'...any questions that pops up inside my head. However, it will never change to the way it was. I don't even understand why.
When I laid my eyes for a guy for the very first time, something went off. My own instincts tells me this leads me to a downfall. Is this imperfection, I guess? But what if he doesn't like me? See, all these decisions and options are giving me a little painful headache.
I thought what we had was special but it's not. Unfortunately, I just don't feel the exact same as they do and nothing compared to him. Pretty unfair, as it is. What I think about love is a total pile of crap and a huge waste of my time. None of the other boys who aren't interested in me because I'm not good enough.
Even though when I am really upset or get jealous at times, but this also gives me the worst luck of my whole boring life. How sad is that, huh? I kept myself putting on 'plastic' fake smiles when I see him pass by the streets. I just walk around, do random stuff and pretend that never happen.
I never felt this so ashamed or feeling embarrassed of myself. I've been such a fool and a loser. But things are about to get worse when I see him....talking with another girl. My social life in a nutshell, the ones I trusted too easily and others who hurts me. Living in the shadows as if I were a rebound.
I just stood there in shock that he likes someone else...instead of me. Too bad I never got the courage to say something to him. I was being a failure to earn my own affection and always simps for any materialistic objects. Such as presents for him like a plush toy, just trying to win over a guy's heart. 😭😭 💔💔
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Of course, I wanted to be happy but no, I failed miserably like a hundred times and it didn't work out. Who do I care? But unluckily for me, these love games makes absolutely no sense at all. As if you were just a random person meeting a 2d anime character in real life. I just don't deserve this...sheesh!
