My Guardian Angel (Angel!Link x Religious!Reader Oneshots) PART 3

Tired To Love Is Poisonous

"Love didn't work for my mom and dad. So why should it work for me?" - Michael

"Goth kids dance to express pain and suffering." - Pete Thelman

"Soon, the world will be emo. It's our time. Nobody understand us and they won't understand until it is far too late. You will join us." - Henrietta Biggle

"I'm not doing it either. I'm the biggest non-conformist of all." - Firkle Smith

Your POV

Everything here in this big world is just an artificial dream. I described it as a delusional part of society. What I really hate the most is the people are being as poisonous as spiders or scorpions here and there. To the citizens who I don't like or I am being hated for stupid reasons. Mostly because of my toxicity.

Yeah, everything turned upside down. Everybody has moved on and splitting into groups. How should I say this? It's just that everything sucks...and I hate it so much. I became a stranger living in the shadows and I know, the feelings of love doesn't work on me. I think my heart has turned as cold as a block of ice.

I can't get enough of this. From social interaction I'm not interested with, to loud noises are too loud for my ears. Reality blows...but a TV show or life is just like living in a cartoon. That's how I described what's the meaning of life is. But what's the point of living? Who needs the 'Barbie-and-Ken' love anyway?

Is this how I supposed to feel right now? I just don't understand why. Didn't bother that I was happy...is that why you took it from me?! Being caught up in drama from the WORST people I have ever met here in this crazy world I am living in. A place I used to call, my 'home planet'...which I found it really a bit off or kinda uncanny.

What I think about the feelings of love is nothing but a myth. Like where's the magic? But I can't see it somewhere. Probably it's just some kids stuff they used to believe in. That is the most childish thing I have ever heard of. I mean, how can it be fun when nothing that makes you happy? The answer is none of the above. Still, it sucks.

As if were a dysfunctional lightning rod, I can rub in so many people's faces that hard like betting your souls for a freakin' bowling ball. Then what is this? The word, 'tough love' sounds odd to you? I don't care what that is or whatever the crap do they want. How typical...blah, blah, blah. This is a bunch of bull-crap.

You heard me? A tree-hugging hippie bull-crap (like Eric Cartman says). Duh, people are such hypocrites. But why do I have to be so violent to the entire world around me? Well, it's easily simple. Now just let me put it this way and hear me out. First, others turned their backs against me and second, I got what I have deserved. I don't mind them at all.

It's not like I actually care about anything that I used to hate. This love...nobody knows what it means to me but no, it doesn't help my problems when I had a boring day or having a very rough time. I wasted my whole life on that. If love is a penny or nickel, then I dropped it to a wishing well and hopefully...a miracle will come pretty soon.

What about sticking to my kind?! Fake bad friends but with no benefits? Boo, that's too much 'Twilight' stuff. A girl falls for a vampire or werewolf...I mean, what's the difference? It's just not the same either. Heck, it's as worse as Disney love whereas dreams cannot come true in real life but a plane of existence.

None of those things are unreal. But in the end, light turns to darkness. A black void that sucks the life out of me and it eats my soul. Love doesn't know where was it came from. It makes me feel sick and tired of trying. Some people are just toxic these days and they are totally the worst sometimes.