I am yours FOREVER (A Zac and Tom story)

What is going on with Lumi ?

Next day
*Lumi*
I walk into the house, feeling rather beside myself. Almost like I am floating above my own body with no contact to my physical body.

"Hi siskoni". Meri says softly. "What did the doctor say ?"

"Yeah". I mumble and throw my back on the table.

Her face pop in front of mine. "Lumi ? What is wrong ?"

"Nothing.. nothing is wrong". I say shaking my head.

"Oh !" She makes an unhappy sound. "It's about my pregnancy, right ? You are angry with me".

I look up. "What ? No... no Meri, it has nothing to do with that".

"Of course it is". She sounds about to cry. "I know you couldn't possibly take it that well. I swear we didn't plan it..".

"Meri, it's not that..". I try.

My sister apparently feels really bad about being pregnant. "I really want to help you guys, it wasn't just something I said.. I mean it. But I also really want kids of my own, does it make me a bad person ? I mean ..".

"For fucks sake, not everything is about you". Okay so I snap, I didn't mean to, but I am just rather stressed out, and I can't take dealing with her feeling bad on top.

"Oh !" She blinks, looking like a confused owl. "Sorry".

I reach out to touch her arm. "No I am sorry, I didn't mean to snap like that. But honestly, it is not about you being pregnant".

"It's okay siskoni". She gives me a small smil. "But what is it about then ?"

I swallow, probably I should tell Zac first. But I can't lie to my sister. "It's about me being pregnant".

"You being.. what ?" She looks so shocked it is almost funny. "But you said that.."

"I couldn't.. I know". I sigh. "Apparently the one in like a billion chance it could happen, did happen. The doctor took three tests as he couldn't believe it".

She looks at me with huge eyes. "But... what then ? I mean you said your medication makes it impossible to carry a child".

"I have to stop with my medication, logically". I have already made up my mind, it took barely a minute.

"Lumi, you can't just.. you need to talk to Zac..". She is interrupted by Zac and Tom coming through the door.

Zac looks at Meri, then me. "What does she need to talk to me about ?"

Meri quickly grabs Tom's arm, pulling him with her, leaving me and Zac alone.

"Lumi ?" He steps over to me, now looking very worried. "What did the doctor say ?"

"I have great news". I look up at him. "We are going to have a baby... I am pregnant".

*Zac*
I think my heart just stopped. "This is a very bad joke Lumi".

Her hand comes to rest on my chest as she slowly shakes her head. "I am not joking Zac, the doctor called it a miracle".

"Miracle ?" I swallow. "If I remember right you can't take your medicine if you are pregnant, right ?" She nods. "So tragedy, not miracle".

"Zac !" She shakes her head. "It is a miracle... not only will we have a baby, we will have our own baby".

I shake my head, feeling how my chest constricts. "But we won't Lumi. We both know there is only one option here, you need to..".

"Do not say that Zac". She clamps a hand over my mouth, her eyes desperate. "I will never forgive you if you say that".

"Lumi, I can't lose you". I feel choked up, I feel panicked. And even though I hate to admit it I feel a hope bubble, I mean this is my biggest dream. "It's too big a risk. You need your medication".

Tears well up in her eyes. "I can't... do that. Zac this is my dream. The doctor says it's risky, but not impossible. I need to be monitored of course..".

"I .. I...". Damn this is so hard. I have seen her waste away once, and almost lost her. I can't do that again. "Baby, I can't stand the thought of losing you".

"Will you at least come with me to the doctor, let him explain everything about the risks ?" She says softly.

Her eyes are begging me and how can I tell her no ? "Okay, I will come to the doctor, but you have to promise me that if the doctor says it is too dangerous you won't go through with it, deal ?"

"Okay, I guess I can promise that". She sighs softly.

"And..". She looks about to protest, but I hold up my hand to silence her. "If the doctor lets you give it a go but he at any time during the pregnancy says that it is getting too dangerous for you to continue.. you will put your life before the baby".

She swallows and bite her lips, that stubborn streak blooming in her eyes.

"Lumi, I need you to promise me that". I touch her cheek softly. "I might want a kid badly, especially with you, but not at the expense of you.. never. So please promise me you will do as the doctors say".

"Okay Zac, I promise". She nods. "I will follow the doctors advice".

*Tom*
"What is happening ?" I ask Meri, as she is pulling me with her out on the lawn.

"They need privacy". She breathes in, then says in a slightly shaking voice. "Lumi's pregnant, one in a million chance. She wants to keep the baby".

I might gasp. "Oh ! Shit. So she is going to stop taking her medication and risk her life to have her baby. Poor Zac, he will be so torn".

"Yeah, I know he wants first and foremost to protect Lumi". She says. "But he also longs to have a real family".

"I know... and Lumi wants more than anything to give him that". I must admit I see and feel both sides, and had I been Zac I would not have known which leg to stand on.

Meri nods slowly. "I could see it in her eyes. She is willing to risk everything for this. Tom I am so scared I might lose her... after all this, after all she got through, I might still lose her".

"Zac won't allow that". I say pulling her into my arms. "He will protect her. He won't let her take it that far".

"I hope you are right". She rests her head on my chest. "Don't underestimate how stubborn she is, and how skilled she is at manipulation if she needs to".

I kiss her forehead. "We need to support Zac if he needs it".

She nod, and I really hope this will end well, for all of our sake.