I am yours FOREVER (A Zac and Tom story)

Feeling bad

*Zac*
"How are you feeling ?" I ask Lumi as She comes out of the bathroom. It is morning and I am still in bed. I can't help but notice how pale she is.

"I am fine Zac". She says, getting that Stubberup look in her eyes. "It is just a bit of morning sickness, totally normal".

I give her a small smile. "We both know there is no such thing as 'totally normal' when it comes to you".

She gives me another one of those looks then turns away from me and goes back into the bathroom. The door slams shut behind her, leaving me with only silence for company. I sigh deeply, knowing what will happen next. That damnable stubborness. Why does she do this? doesn't She know by now that I am with her ... not against her.

I get up and pull on my pants, befor I go to knock on the door. "Lumi, sweetie".

"Get lost wookie". She says, using the old nickname.

"Can I come in, darling ?" I ask softly.

There is no answer. I bang again. This time I hear a muffled thump followed by sobbing. My heart sinks further inside my chest as I open the door. Lumi sits curled up on the floor, crying silently while hugging herself tightly.

"What's wrong ?" I ask softly, kneeling down beside her. My heart hearing so hard I feel dizzy.

"He hates me." Is all she manages before breaking down completely.

I stroke her hair gently until finally she calms down enough to talk. "Who hates you ?"

"The baby". She whispers through tears.

"Sweetheart ...".

She shakes her head violently. "No ! He hates me because he knows that if I start getting sick again he will die".

My hands tighten around hers. "That isn't true. You are going to make it, and our son will live long and healthy life".

I am trying to convince myself as much as her. But even though I know deep down that she won't die, I cannot bear the thought of losing her or any of them.

Lumi pulls away from me suddenly, turning towards the window. "You don't understand", She hisses angrily. "I have tried everything, but you have started to notice ... that is why you asked. I am not doing well". She takes a shaky breath.

"But you're okay right now, aren't you ?". I try to keep the desperation from my voice. "As you said, it is just morning sickness, right ?"

Her face darkens. "Of course I'm not" She snarls at me. Then she starts bawling again.

I hold onto her tightly, letting her cry. After some minutes she stops. She wipes her eyes with the sleeve of her t-shirt.

"Why didn't you tell me sooner ?" I ask softly.

She shrugs helplessly. "Because I was afraid that you would force me to ... that you would tell me that we can't keep the baby".

My heart breaks inside my chest. I hate myself for being selfish, but I need her to stay alive. If anything happens to Lumi, then nothing else matters anymore. I will be alone forever. I would hate for us to loose the baby too, no doubt, it would crush my heart ... but Lumi comes first.

"Please ... let me take care of you and our son. Please don't leave me, Lumi". I say softly. "We should go talk to the doctor before we decided anything else".

She nods slowly. I get her up and gently wash her face. "It will be okay Lumi".

We walk downstairs together. When we reach the kitchen, I see that Meri is there waiting for us. I had forgot her and Lumi had decided to go baby shopping today. She stands up as soon as she sees Lumi.

"Is something wrong ?" She asks worriedly.

Lumi tries to speak, but she can barely manage a whisper. "I think I might be having trouble with morning sickness" . She pauses, looking down at her stomach.

Meri's expression changes instantly. "Oh, no, Lumi. Are you sure that everything is okay ?"

"Yes, I am quite certain. You know that it is normal for women who are carrying babies to experience nausea during their pregnancy, right ? You should know being pregnant". She clearly forces herself to sound calm and confident.

"Are you sure ?". Meri repeats, still sounding very concerned. "That you are okay, I mean ?"

Lumi shakes her head sadly. "I really hope that I am mistaken about this, but it seems like things are getting worse. Maybe it is just morning sickness or maybe it is more than that".

Meri looks between both of us. "You should call your doctor immediately, ok ?"

"I am on it, Meri". I tell her with a small nod. "I will make sure we get an appointment, today".

She smiles gratefully. "Thank you, I appreciate it. It is a good thing she has you to take care of her".

Lumi leans against her sister. "This sucks, doesn't it ?".

"It will be alright". Meri hugs her tight and kisses the top of her head.

I give them a small smile, then pull out my phone as I step out on the back poarch to call the doctor.