I am yours FOREVER (A Zac and Tom story)

Tom did what ?

*Lumi*
"Baby wake up.. you need to wake up right now.. I need you so badly". It's the morning after the birthday party and I am awakened by Zac's pleading voice somewhere above me.

"Seriously Zac.. you didn't have enough last night". I grumble, I mean despite being rather drunk, he had been well.. in a rather amorous mood.. this is a new .. low, or is it high ? level of desperation even for him.

He grabs my arm, shaking me slightly. "Lumi, it's serious.. Meri needs you.. Tom.. Tom broke up with her".

"WHAT !" I instantly sit up in bed staring at him like he just told me that the moon has fallen down in the backyard. "He did what ? Oh God, she must be crushed. Where is that fucking wanker ? I need to get my hands on him".

"He is long gone baby, he packed a bag and left, him and Bobby". He shakes his head. "I tried to stop him, but.. he pushed me away, he actually pushed me away and told me to stay 'the fuck' out of it... and well Meri needed someone so..".

"You did the right thing". I jump out of bed, and grab the nearest piece of clothes, one of Zac's t-shirts, pulling it on. Then I grab a pair of panties from my dresser and hurry out the door. "Where is she ?"

"Kitchen.. but.. she acts all weird, it's a bit scary actually". He follows me with long strides, looking all worried. "Like nothing happened and everything is okay. She cried for like 10 minutes in my arms and then.. this..".

I look into the kitchen where Meri is cooking breakfast, whistling along to the radio, tidying up as she goes along. I shake my head, knowing my sister. "Oh this is bad.. this is so bad".

"I thought so.. I mean.. that isn't normal behaviour right ?.. So what do we do ?" He looks at me.

"Well beside choking the life out of Tom when I get my hands on him.. ? We support her and take her with us to Texas.. she is going to break down soon.. she will need us". I take a deep breath before walking over to her.

I make my way slowly over to Meri. "Morning siskoni.. how are you feeling ?"

"Oh I am fine, just getting some breakfast ready. I was thinking you would probably be hungry". She smiles at me, only the red puffy eyes tell me that she has been crying badly.

"Meri, sweetie". I place a hand on her arm to stop her. I wish she would scream and cry, just something else than this. "Zac told me what happened.. I am so sorry about that".

She shrugs. "That's life I guess.. At some point people have to move on, right ? New places to go. New jobs. Other people to fuck".

"Oh sweetie don't say that. He .. he wouldn't do that". I pull her into me, and after a minute she kind of gives in, collapsing against me. But she is not hugging me back or crying.

I look at Zac, who is chewing on his thumb. He looks up and I catch his eyes, making him shrug, looking all worried. I wonder what the hell happened here. I mean, did something happen last night that I don't know about ? When I said goodnight to them before getting Zac to bed, they seemed happy.

"The food is getting cold.. come eat". Meri gently detangles herself from me, and goes to put food on the table.

*Tom*
"You what ?" Emma is yelling at me and my mother looks rather shocked. I am at my mom's house and have just told them what happened.

"Stop yelling at me Emma". I shoot her an annoyed glare. "I broke up with Meri.. it was the best for her".

I am biting my bottom lip to stop it from quivering and to cause enough pain to stop the tears. My mother hurries over. "Aww Thomas, you poor thing".

"Poor him ? What about Meri ? That girl loves you like none other.. why would this be better for her ?" Emma's voice is still angry and very high.

"Because she can't be without her sister, okay ? And her sister is going to Texas to marry Zac.. she really wanted to go, but I held her back.. now I am not holding her back anymore". I give in, letting my mom hug me as I sob into her shoulder.

My mom just rubs my back, the way she used to do when I was a kid and Emma's voice has softened. "So you broke it off with her, because you thought she should be with her sister and you didn't want to be in her way".

I nod, happy that at least someone understands me. "Yeah".

"Tom, you are my brother and I love you dearly". She says softly, but then her voice turns into a yell, making me flinch. "But you are a fucking idiot sometimes.. Mom ! Say something".

"Emma calm down". My mom scolds her. "Thomas.. my dear.. your sister is right.. why on Earth did you do that ?"

I shake down a sob, so no support here either. Great, I just managed to make the whole world hate me. "She was so upset.. I couldn't bear seeing her like that.. it was clear that.. Lumi means more to her than I do.. than I ever can.. but she felt she owed me to stay.. I needed to let her go, so she can be happy".

"You ..big..".

My mom holds up her hand and gives Emma a look that makes her shut up instantly. "Thomas, you need to think this through. Maybe there is another solution to this.. because you don't really want to break up do you ?"

"I did it for her.. I just want her to be happy". I shake my head, pulling away. "I'll be in my old room. I.. I need to be alone".

I run up the stairs, Bobby hot on my heels and when I crumble, rolling up on the bed, he jumps up and I hug him into me. "I just want her to be happy Bobby.. please tell me I did the right thing".

But if I did the right thing, why does it hurt so much ? Why does it feel like the broken shards of my heart are ripping open my chest every time I breathe ?