I am yours FOREVER (A Zac and Tom story)

The greatest gift

*Tom*
Why is my sister shaking me ? Why does she sound so desperate ? And why do my head feel like it is filled with wool ? I blink my eyes open. "Calm down Emma.. where is the damn fire ?"

"Oh Tom, thank god.. I thought you were dead". She hugs me so fiercely that I can hardly breathe.

I yawn and stretch. "Why on earth would you think that ? I am just sleeping"

"Because you fucking looked dead you ass-hat". She slaps my shoulder. "Because I come here finding Bobby with no food or water, your house a stinking mess and you on the couch with whiskey and a bottle of sleeping pills.. what the hell Tom, you missed the gala last night".

I rub my eyes, I feel like I am still half asleep. "No what.. no, no..the gala is thursday.. it is what ? Sometime Wednesday, right ?"

"Tom.. it is friday". She stares at me like I have gone crazy. "When did you fall asleep ?"

"No.. stop making fun of me". I shake my head feeling nauseous. "I couldn't sleep.. that was Tuesday, I tried a couple of glasses of whiskey.. didn't work, so took a couple of sleeping pills, when it didn't work I might have taken some more".

She picks up the glass, looking at it. "How many did you take, Tom ? Because you my dear have slept for more than two days and by the smell of it peed yourself in the process".

"I just wanted to sleep.. I can't sleep these days". I sigh, realising she is right. "And if I drift off I have nightmares about Meri".

"Oh sweetie, I told you that you made a mistake". She looks at me with nothing but love. "Go shower.. a long one please. I'll walk Bobby and try to clean a bit. Then we figure this out, okay ?"

I nod and give her a quick hug. "Thanks darling.. Thank you". Then I hurry out into the bathroom, knowing I never needed a shower more than now.

*Lumi*
"There is something I should tell you, mussu". I look at Zac as we sit in the private booth in the very fancy restaurant. I don't know why I feel the need to tell him here, Maybe because Meri is here and we are public, it gives me a sense of control.. something to cushion it.

"What is it darling ?" He takes my hand on top of the table, making me swallow.

Meri halfway gets up from her seat. "Do you want me to leave you alone for a bit ?"

"No.. I actually want you here too.. for emotional support". I give her a small smile and she sits down.

"So what is it, Lumi ?" Zac asks softly. He looks slightly worried now.

I breathe in deeply. "I talked to the doctor about that other thing, you know.. and..". I fight the sudden wave of emotions and just shake my head.

It hurts me to see Zac's smile falter, but he quickly manages to pull it back on. "It's okay.. there are other ways.. the most important thing is that you are doing fine".

"What are you talking about ? Which other thing ?" Meri looks at me, for once actually seeming alert.

"Kids.. I can't have any. The doctor told me that my eggs are.. Well, basically dead from all the radiation and medicine.. so I can't get pregnant". I manage to say before I have to swallow again.

Zac gently rubs his thumb against the palm of my hand. "We can adopt.. there are always kids needing parents".

"You can have mine". Meri says, looking from me to Zac.

"Have your.. what ?" Zac looks at her rather confused.

She smiles, the first real smile I have seen since we got here. "My eggs, I am not going to have kids, but I am sure my eggs work, you can have some.. I mean they are kind of identical to yours so..".

"Oh Meri, that is so sweet of you". Now I really feel like crying. "But.. The doctor told me that .. I can't go off the medication, so it's not possible for me to go through a pregnancy. But it is so sweet of you".

"No problem, I can do it". She places her hand on top of mine and Zac's. "I can carry the baby and after the birth, it's yours".

Zac's eyes look about to pop out of his head. "Oh.. wow Meri.. would you really do that ?"

"Yeah, sure". She looks at me with such love. "I know how much the two of you want a kid.. and I want to help make it happen".

"Meri we can't accept that.. I mean.. you haven't had kids of your own yet". My heart is close to bursting with love towards my sister. Honestly I want this, but it is so risky.

She shakes her head. "I am not going to have any.. ever.. but I would love a niece or nephew.. please let me help you.. let me do this for you".

Zac bite his lip, looking slightly worried. "Uhm.. how is something like this.. done ?"

"Well you see Zac". I look at Meri and she giggles. "When a man and a woman get together naked..". I pause. "In a clinic Zac, it's done in a clinic of course.. you won't have to.. you know.. make it".

He lets out a breath. "Oh thanks god.. sorry Meri not that you are not a babe, but.. no couldn't do that".

"I don't know.. Meri I really love you for offering.. but it's such a huge thing". I look at Zac, then at Meri.

"Maybe we should all think about this.. and talk some more tomorrow". Zac says softly. Then he lifts Meri's hand to his lips, pressing a kiss to her palm. "Thank you my sweet Meri mouse.. truly.. Thank you".

We finish the dinner and Meri looks happier than she has done since before.. Well before that bastard broke her.

Then we drive home, my mind circling around the offer. I know Zac wants kids so badly. And I want to give him kids. But can I really accept this. What if she changes her mind and wants the baby herself.. I mean it would be hers.. hers and Zac's.. it's a weird thought.

Would it end up being weird for her to be around us.. and the kid?

As we arrive home, I see a shadow on the porch. Oh hell no. I feel anger surge through me and quickly jump out of the car.