I am yours FOREVER (A Zac and Tom story)

Emotions running high

*Lumi*
"Hi Meri.. Hi Tom". I watch them as they come into the kitchen and instantly notice something is different. "What is going on here ?"

They look at each other and Tom nods, making Meri step over to me. "We have something to say... Good and bad".

"I don't like bad". Zac mumbles.

"What is it ?" I am worried it has to do with Tom, I mean he has made great progress, it would be heartbreaking if there was something wrong.

Meri touches my arm softly. "My promise... you know the baby thing ?"

"Yeah..". I swallow. Has she changed her mind ? Or has Tom ?

"I... we will have to postpone it for a bit". She gives me a small smile. "I am pregnant... I am sorry".

I shake my head. "Sorry ? Oh siskoni don't be sorry. I am so happy for you, both of you".

"Really ? You are not disappointed at all ?" She mumbles, looking at me.

"Would I wish I didn't have to wait, sure... But disappointed ? No way, I am going to be an aunt, how could I be disappointed ?" I say softly, pushing down the jealousy that she will have what I wish for so badly.

Zac comes over and I move to congratulate Tom, seeing Zac hug my sister. I can't see what they are saying, but the way she strokes his cheek tells me she is feeling him and she cares how he feels.

"Congratulations Tom.. I truly am happy for both of you". I tell him as I hug him.

"I know you are". He takes my hands and looks up at me. "And I truly am sorry it postponed your plans".

I lean down to kiss his forehead. "It will work out, I have no doubt".

"I promise you we will honour our promise". He smiles again.

As Zac comes over to congratulate Tom, I go back to my sister. "So, tell me everything. How far along are you ?"

*Zac*
"Are you okay, baby ?" I ask softly as we are alone.

She nods. "Of course, it's not a no, just a... later. And I truly am happy for them".

"It's okay to be upset at the same time". I tell her, pulling her into my arms.

She sighs and rests her head on my chest. "I feel so bad... I mean I am happy for them. But I am also scared that we will never be parents now".

"They would never go back on their promise". I gently stroke her back.

"I know..". She lets out a small choked sound. "But pregnancy, recovery, getting pregnant again.. it's at least two, maybe three years. And what if, God forbid, she has trouble during pregnancy or birth and decides she can't do it again ?"

I hold her tighter, feeling the little trembles to her shoulders. "There is no reason to fear the worst, my love. I am sure everything will be okay".

"But what if it won't be okay, Zac ?" She looks up at me, tears in her beautiful eyes.

I sweep her into my arms and sit down on the edge of the bed, cradling her to me. "No matter what it will be okay, baby. There is always adoption".

A small sob escapes her. "Don't get me wrong, adoption is a great thing, but ... I had just finally gotten used to the idea that this was how it would be, and then it's maybe not.. and..".

"I know baby, I know". I bury my face in her hair. I am actually just as scared as her, and the idea of waiting years hurts. But I feel I need to be strong for her.

"I am so sorry Zac". She mumbles. "You deserve someone fully a woman".

My head snaps up and I grab her chin to make her look into my eyes. "Never ever say something like that again. I love you Lumi, more than anything. You are more important. If we get a baby, I am happy. If we have to adopt it as totally okay too, hell we can just get a pack of dogs and be fur parents, if that's what works.. as long as I have you I am happy".

"What about cats ?" She gives me a small smile.

"Damn woman, I'll even get you a bunch of cats". I sigh. "And keep in mind that I am severely allergic".

Her smile widens. "This is why I love you so much".

"Because I am your willing slave ?" I grin.

"That too". She kisses my nose. "But mostly because you are the sweetest and least selfish man in the world".

I kiss her softly. "And I love you because you are the strongest, most fierce warrior Queen with the softest heart".

"You always know what to say to a girl, don't you ?" She says, and then mutters. "Smooth bastard".

I just chuckle. "It's okay to give the warrior queen a break and just be soft hearted, baby".

She looks up at me, and then the tear comes for real and I just hold her, telling her that I know and that it is totally okay for her to be upset.

We sit like that for a long time, but when she looks up I notice something. "Are you okay darling ? You look... pale".

"I am feeling rather queasy". She mumbles and swallows.

To be honest she looks almost more green than pale, like she is about to ..

She jumps up and runs to the bathroom, and a second later I hear her throw up. I follow her out there and gently brush her hair from her face.

"Sorry". She mumbles, as I gently wash her face.

"No need to be sorry, love". I say softly, trying to keep my fears in check. "Are you feeling sick ? Do you think it's the... something with the medicine or something ?"

She drinks some water and sighs. "Not sure.. Maybe it's just all the emotions".

"I think you should talk to your doctor, just to be sure". I say softly.

"When you say that you mean I better go or you will drag me there, right ?" She looks at me.

I nod. "Yup, this is one of those things where I will put down my foot".

"Okay then". She sighs. "I will call and ask for a check up".

"Good girl". I lean in to kiss her. But to be honest I can't stop the knot from growing in my stomach.