Celestial Worlds

Chapter Fourteen

I dress up in a sundress that Debby bought me. It's red with white flowers along the seams. I told Debby where I'd go and she just gave me mischievous smile and gestured me to go. Does she know? I wonder if Jonathan talked to her about this...about us. I'm flushing by the way I say us. We've only been kissing for two days or three. It isn't like we were doing this for a month or a year so I don't want to stress about it. I shouldn't, but I'm still doing it.

    I hop on a cab and tell the driver to bring me to Brown Oaks. When I arrive, I half expected to see Jonathan running toward me and kissing me like he's never kissed me before in the span of two days. But...he didn't. Instead, when I got inside the house, he isn't there. And then I remembered that he's still at work and probably won't be home until sun-down. I settle myself on the couch and find myself tired. My eyelids are heavy for waking up early, for this. I fall asleep.

"Victoria!"

    I jolt awake and see Jonathan, his hair falling to his face and looking tired as usual. He's mad at me. When he sees me awake, he pulls his hands away from my shoulders that I didn't realize were there. He runs a hand through his hair while the other one's on his hip. "What the hell are you doing here?"

    "I-," I start.

    "Don't," he says sternly. He closes his eyes and exhales, pinching the bridge of his nose. "Why are you here," he says, eyes still close. It's pretty obvious he's having a hard time keeping calm.

    "I-I came t-to talk." My voice came out shaky and scared.

    "About what? This better be worth for you to show up here, interfering with my day." I was taken aback by his words. But instead of flinching or crying, I say, "About this. Whatever the hell this is." Now I'm angry. Angry for him being angry at me, and angry at him for arguing with me, for seeing me as a burden. He looks at me like I've lost my mind, like I don't even know what I'm talking about.

    "We just kissed. That's it," he replied. Staring right through me. I see something flicker in his eyes. I could've sworn I saw something flicker, like, really flicker. Still, his words stung like a snake bite. I exhaled loud.

    "Yeah, you're right we just kissed. I'm sure that meant nothing," I shot back sarcastically. Then I started to stand up. "You know what, it was wrong for me to go here. It was a huge mistake. I shouldn't have come here to-to apologize. Even if I was going to apologizing about nothing." I walked out and took a cab and went home. My eyes were red-rimmed from the crying. I was sobbing so loud the driver was sneaking worried glances at me. I went straight up not saying anything to Debby when I passed her. I hope she didn't notice me. I was trying my best to keep quiet. I lay on my bed, not bothering to change into my pyjamas anymore. I cried some more and cried myself to sleep.