Untology [Stories]

12. Me, Myself and I

"How are you?", Ysa replied.

I gasped and replied, "As always, I am fine."

Someone laughed. "Really, Bell? Okay ka? E kung tapusin mo na kaya ang buhay mo! Puro ka okay nang okay e napakadami na nating problema!" Ella stood up and grabed a knife. "End this life, that is the main solution for this problem, Bell. End this freaking life."

Nanginig ang katawan ko at natatakot. Napalunok at napatingin sa hawak niyang kutsilyo.

"What— what the hell, Ella! If she'll end this life, mawawala ka rin, tayo, tayong dalawa ay mawawala rin! Remember that I am you, you are she, she is me. Iisa tayong tatlo," said Ysa.

I started crying like a child while holding a knife.

Because of my problems, nagsimula na akong gumawa ng kung ano-ano sa isipan ko. I created these two for my self to feel that I am not alone. For me to hear someone questioning if I am fine or not. For me to hear someone helping me to solve my unending problems.

Now, I have a multi-personality disorder.

I am Bell, the main person in this body. Ang matatakutin at mahina.

Si Ysa, which is the caring one. She is smiling always. Matatag sa lahat ng oras.

And last, Ella. Siya ang nakakaisip lagi ng mga solutions that can end something.

And we are Ysabella.

Because of me having this kind of disease, I am feeling that I am alone with me, myself and I.

I looked at Ella, I nodded as a sign of an agreement. Ngumiti siya nang nakakaluko. Samantalang si Ysa ay nangangatal dahil sa pagkatakot.

Sa huli, ginawa ko na ang huling solution to end everything about me and my problems. Sinaksak ko ang sarili ko nang paulit-ulit.

Ending this life would end my problems, too.

Tears fell down from my eyes.

And then everything went black.

—ysaqueens
This is a work of fiction. Huwag po ninyong seryosohin. Huwag po kayong tumulad sa story'ng ito. Please, if you have problem/s, never have a doubt to talk to God and read His Words. Suicide is a crime, never ever dare to commit one.

Deutoronomy 31:8 The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged."

Isaiah 41:10 So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.